When I Fell For You

So You All Know It?

Kongpob’s P.O.V.


I didn’t see Arthit throughout the day, and whenever I called him, it either wasn’t answered or it was always P'Knot who picked up the call.


“What nong? I think I had told you that Arthit is asleep.” Knot said in annoyance from the other end.

“He's been asleep for the whole day?” I felt irritated, why was he still around P' at this hour of night?


“Kongpob!”

“Sorry, P'Knot.” I said before ending the call at once.

The whole day, I had tried to look everywhere possible until P'Knot told me that Arthit had called in sick, and that was why he didn’t even come for the hazing activities as well.


And not for once he attended my call! Why was P'Knot so much around him?


Why not me? I was always around him!


What was our friendliness only existed just because of our deal? And now that he had got it sorted… I was of no use to him?

I was startled when I heard knocks on my room's door.

I rubbed my eyes, I was really going crazy over this senior of mine.

“Come in, it’s open.”

I smiled as Tew, Oak, Wad and M walked in with all the books and chart papers in their arms.


For a moment I was blank until I realised we had the group project together.

So, without letting my mind whirring into more of a mess, I picked up my own notes and distracted myself to books.

"Why do you look like you haven't slept for ten days straight?" M asked.

"Looks like someone is feeling lovesick." Wad smirked at me.

I smirked back, "I can't help it, Wad... I'm not getting to hook up with my senior every now and then." I said enough savagely that froze him and perked up the ears of Tew, Oak and M around.

"What?! Wad!" M turned to him.

“Who is it?" Tew jumped in.

“Seriously, it's nothing.” Wad tried to dodge the rain of questions that were coming his way.

I just smiled triumphantly looking at him.

“Well, I'm not the only one hooking up with a hazer! Kong himself has been involved with the Head Hazer!" Wad pointed out.

“So you all know it?”

There was silence when Tew was the one to speak up.

M and Wad mainly used Arthit as an excuse to tease me, but Tew.... Oh my god he had seen Arthit introduce me as his boyfriend infront of his cousin and M and Wad didn't need to know about it!

And Oak, who was currently trying to process in all the sudden information regarding his friends had his jaw hanging more and more.

“What do you mean by 'we know it'?” Wad asked, forcing Tew not to glance at me.

Shit!

“Well, Kong had only asked me not to speak up about it, but now that you all know... I feel so relieved.” Tew said and chuckled.

Wad and M stared at me like I had suddenly turned to some form of painting that they were finding hard to decipher.

I don't know why but I no longer felt like even correcting anyone anymore... these jerks were still scared of Arthit to death to even try to breathe near him let alone try to comment at anything infront of him.

“Are we doing the project now or not?” I asked.

“Seriously, Kong.... Out of all the people, you found P'Arthit to nail? I mean... We were just teasing about it... You didn't have to take it literally.” M said.

I glared at him.

“Please never tell him anything we ever spoke about him.” Oak said in almost a request.

I smirked turning to my book.

“Are we studying or not?” I pointed out again and eventually once the surprise dissipated, everyone got back to work.

But I was really worried, maybe the next day, I would really be able to meet up with him...

But things seemed to change a lot lately. 

The next day when I finally did see him, he totally avoided me like I wasn’t even there, even when I had greeted him.

By now, I was so sure something wasn’t right.

So, I did what I felt sensible enough to do.

He was passing by while we were eating, I left my food to catch up with him, I had barely pulled his jacket when he shouted.


“What is it Ai'Kongpob!” He shouted.


I was startled because I didn’t usually witness this erratic moody Arthit who was laughing just a minute ago with his friends and now throwing me glares of so much rage that I immediately felt like running away.

“What is up with you lately? Why are you avoiding me?” I asked.

He looked at me for a moment, then exhaled out the breath he was holding, closing his eyes for a second before he looked back in my eyes.


“This is how I am, Kong, we were sharing so much of our time because we had a deal, now… I’m done with it, so I don’t find a reason to be answerable to you in anyway, or to even be around you other than if you need some help from as a junior. So, please… just stop making my situation any more tough for me to handle right now.” He said.

“How am I making it tough?” I shrugged.


He glared at me, “Just breathing around me makes me enough annoyed of you!” He shouted.


“Well, breathing is a biological process of survival, I can’t help it.” I shrugged.

He rolled his eyes before he started to walk away.


“Wait!”

“Now what?” He looked at me, annoyed.


“If I can’t talk to you until I need some help as your junior… well, here’s some math problems I'm unable to solve, can you help me out?” I said while pulling out my book from my bag, he looked at me in disbelief for a moment before he started to study the equation.


“You’re really not going to let me go, will you?” He muttered under his breath while smiled at him,

“Not unless you want me to let you go.” I said it, though I started to desperately pray internally that he doesn’t asks me to let him go.


“This can be solved this way.” He said instead while sitting by the steps nearby and I had never felt more relieved in my life as I sat beside, trying to concentrate on the book but couldn’t stop myself from smiling at him.


“I’m leaving if you continue to stare at me.” He uttered despite his eyes trained to the book.


“Sorry, P'” I said while focusing back on the book.

As he finished with explaining the problems, he started to leave and I was keeping my book back, when I heard him.


“Kong.”

“Yeah?” I looked at him.

“Let’s just be who we were before any of this happened.” He said.

“But this is who I have always been.” I said simply.


He looked taken aback, stared at me in some strange kind of helplessness and gradually he left without uttering another word.

*****

So I was right, despite our little talk the previous day, Arthit was actually bothered by something, and I had this strange feeling that it was definitely relating to me.

The next day, I couldn’t find Arthit in the campus again, when I enquired, his friends told me that he wasn’t feeling well.


It irked me, he was not well, and here I was binging on my coffee and noodles, I lost my appetite and started to leave the restaurant when it struck me.

He was trying to avoid me and something was bothering him, and if I could somehow talk it out, wouldn’t that work?

If he was really not well, maybe I could look after him?

So I did the next thing I deemed sensible enough, I bought pink milk, and headed towards his dorm.

It was better if we speak out, if I just confessed…. Or anything that could simplify this complicated, strained relationship between me and this senior of mine.

What if I have a broken heart by the end of it all?

Atleast I wouldn’t be facing a broken Arthit infront of me everyday.