In some other world I wanted to believe that Bucky was a changed man. But his actions lately prove that he's been brainwashed to the point of no return. This breaks my heart, but it's something that I have to accept.
Of course, I blame myself entirely for this. Not just what's been happening for the past couple of days, but what has happened in the past seventy years.
I was so stubborn back then. Bucky told me that I didn't have to prove anything to anyone, but I did. He didn't know what it was like to be me. He was handsome, funny, clever, and charming. Everybody loved him and wanted to be around him. But I was the exact opposite. I was restrained, awkward, stubborn, and ignorant.
I wanted to prove to the world that I could be just like them, if not, better. And I did. But for what cost? I lost my bestfriend, my other half.
I realize now that the glory wasn't worth it. None of this was worth it. If I had the chance to go back, I'd do it in a heartbeat. But I know that that isn't possible.
This is all my fault, and I will never forgive myself.
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the tables have turned | steve/bucky
FanfictionSteve Rogers was always known as the sick kid back in his day; his best friend, Bucky Barnes, never even seemed to catch the common cold. But things never happen the same way twice. This time, it's Bucky who's clinging onto life . . . *undergoing co...
