In 37 Days

Chapter five

Paxton's POV
I had really wanted to tell Rose what my tattoo meant. But I guess I was just scared of what she would have said. I actually think I like her more then a friend. I look over at Rose to see her staring at me. "What's wrong" I say looking into her gorgeous blue eyes. "Why did you fight Ace. I would like to know because you had said something about the way he treated you was that it" Rose said looking at her feet. I pull onto the side of the road and look at her. She still had her head down so I hooked my finger under her chin and made her look at me. "No I could have taken the insults but he made a post on Twitter that set me off. He was talking about how he would like to get into your pants" I say with tears at the rim of my eyes. I honestly don't know why it set me off so much I think it was because he had insulted Rose. I look at the dash and see that there is 30 minutes left of school. And with that I start my truck and head towards Rose's house. I drop Rose off an head home to my abusive parents. I pull up in the driveway to see that they are both home so I pull the key out of the ignition and head towards the front door. I ran to my room since as soon as I walked in all I could smell was weed and booze. I walked into my room locking the door behind me. I had felt an anxiety attack coming on so I walked to my bathroom and shut the door. I had stood in the shower until the hot water became cold and I had steeped out dripping wet. I looked into the mirror and I had seen a razor lying on the sink.
TRIGGER WARNING
"No" I told myself. But my body moved in it's own manner. Tears had begun streaming down my face as I stared at the razor and with that I brought the razor down to my wrists cutting five times and then I switched off to my other wrist. I watched as I he blood pooled out of my wrist. I brought my phone out and texted Rose. (Rose I am so sorry. I just want to let you know I love you and more as a friend the only reason i never let you come to my house was because my parents they make it hard on me. If they are not high or piss drunk then they are fighting or abusing me. I want to let you know that everything will be okay for you. I will always be in our heart. I had gotten that rose tatto because of you. I love you. Goodbye)

And with that I had put my phone down and cut my wrists some more. I had heard a knock on my door before the door handle turned. The only person that has a key is Rose. I looked at the bathroom door to see it open with a crying rose. She comes to me and then I blackout.

I try opening my eyes but it's like I can't I hear faint voices in the back ground. "Hello" I call out but it feels like someone took sand paper to my throat because I could barley speak. I had finely opened my eyes to see that I am in the hospital I look to my left and see Rose holding my hand. I feel my cheeks heat up and I give her a sad smile since my depression is acting up. "How do you feel" Rose asks looking up tiredly. Wait it shouldn't be that late. I look out my hospital room window to see the sun rising. "You had been out for four days" Rose says tears streaming down her face. "Hey no. Please don't cry". I move over and try to pull rose onto the bed with me. I hug her and I whisper sweet nothings into her ear. "It's okay Rose" i say burying my face into the crook of her neck. "No Paxton it is not okay you tried to kill yourself. And I read your text. You are not going back to your house" Rose says pulling herself closer. "Where do you think I am going to stay then Rose. I have nowhere to go" Rose pulls away and looks into my eyes. "With me" she says waiting for an answer. "I don't think your parents would like to have me there Rose" I say looking at her. "They wouldn't mind they love you" she says as she sits up.