Amongst Us

Chapter 25

4 months later...

Angelica's P.O.V

We had sorted everything with Duke and he had agreed to the alliance. I have to admit i'm still not over him completely i mean i know i have wesley but there's still something there for duke as well. I felt it when we had first arrived at duke's pack lands.

I had told wesley about it because i didn't want to keep anything from him, and surprisingly he took it fairly well in the sense he didn't yell or curse me out. As much as he said it was ok though he still wasn't acting the same and that scared me.

I really do love Wesley and i know it's hurting him to know that there is still feelings for Duke i just wish i knew how to fix it. I was cut off from my thoughts when Wesley walked into our room.

" Hey" he mumbled

" Hey..."

he walked into the bathroom and shut the door. I sat on our bed wondering what in the world i was going to do, i knew i had to talk to him i just wish he would say more than just a hey when he walked into the same room as me. Wesley finished in the bathroom and walked out so i stopped him.

" Wes..... i think we....."

" Not right now Angelica i have things to do"

" So were just not going to speak about it, just gunna slide it under the rug, your just going to not talk to me..... I was only just trying to be honest with you.... you know what it doesn't even matter..... you've got things to do, i'll just leave you to it"

with that i walked out, more like ran but hey i was scared.... I just wanted to fix things and he couldn't take two minutes to even talk to me. I had no idea where i was going i just knew that i needed to be by myself for a while. Again i did the thing that comes easily to me, but for once i wasn't actually running away from my problems, i'd go back i just needed some time to sort out what i was supposed to do.

Wesley's P.O.V

I watched her run out of the room and i couldn't even bring myself to go after her. I just let her go, i didn't know what to do. I mean she told me she still had feelings for Duke and as much as i know she was just being honest with me, it cut me deeper than anything else i've ever experienced before, minus the death of my previous mate. I walked over to the bed and sat down, i knew i shouldn't have been treating her this way but i honestly didn't know what to say to her.

What do you say to someone who holds your heart in their hands (and i know it was unintentional ) but crushes it by telling you they still have feelings for their ex? I was lost, i'd walk into our room and she'd be there looking sad and i just want to walk up to her and hold her in my arms and tell her it will all be ok and we'll get through it...... but i can't because i don't think i can get over it, it kills me to think it but it's the truth and so i've learnt, the truth hurts. I love Angelica more than life itself, but how do you stay with someone who will never love you the same way you do them.

Angelica's P.O.V

I sat on my own for what felt like days by the time i realised it was dark i knew i had to go back. I was going to give Wesley the space that he needed and move into a different room, i'd already mind linked alpha Harris to ask if that was ok and explained what had happened. He had told me it was fine but i needed to fix it as soon as possible because Wesley wasn't in his right frame of mind, and he needed his full concentration. I told him i was trying and id keep him updated. Then he had told me which room i was staying in and that my stuff was already moved. Wesley didn't know.

I finally made it back to our room to see if Wesley was there.... he was...

" Wes.... "

" Get out" he growled

" Wes please will you just listen to me"

" I SAID GET OUT!!!"

I stood there, watching him for a moment, tears forming in my eyes,  i nodded as my heart completely shattered for the second time in my life knowing that he didn't want me anymore, i could see it in his eyes, the way he looked at me as if hating my very presence, hating me. Wesley Harris my mate hates me. I walked away with my head down and went to my room and locked the door. I went over to the bed laid down and cried, i cried for everything and finally i cried myself into exhaustion, falling asleep.

I woke up the next morning feeling worse than what i did the night before. I laid there, i knew i probably should get up and eat but i couldn't bring myself to leave the room. So i didn't. I shut my mind link off to everyone and i stayed in my room, thank the moon goddess for the ensuite cause i could still shower. By the time late afternoon rolled around alpha harris and a few other pack members had noticed my lack of presence and so alpha harris came to check on me himself. I opened the door and let him in.

" What happened to keeping me informed"

" ah sorry alpha, i just..... i don't know i think i made it worse by moving rooms"

" Yeah, i gathered as much, so what are you going to do?"

" I feel like there is nothing to do, the way he looked at me last night..... The hate in his eyes, like he couldn't stand to be anywhere near me, like i disgust him..... guess it's my own fault really."

" You were being honest with him i think that counts for something"

" yeah well you'd think so..... How is he doing anyway?"

" Maybe you should go find out for yourself "

With that he walked away, i stood there thinking about everything and the one thing that kept running through my head was to go and see for myself, the worst that could happen is he ends this for good.