Suzie in Character.
I've been home waiting for Mimi to arrive so I can tell her what's troubling me...even though, it's obvious that it's about Justin, for these few days without him I felt completely lost. I love Justin, I have always loved him. His smiles, the way he makes me feel, he knows the words to say to make you feel on cloud nine..but I haven't been myself. I can't stop thinking about him. He's a player, a heartbreaker, a pervert, a womanizer, call him all the worse names you can think of but I believe no one is perfect. Justin just get confused and I believe with time and efforts we can make things work....oh God! What am I thinking of? Am I insane? Coz two days ago I had wanted to tell I couldn't take more of his stupidities, I wanted to call it quits but here I am again wanting a validation from myself and possibly Mimi or anyone that can confirm to me that there's still hope for me and Justin.
I have missed him, anytime I pick up my phone, he's the first person I think about, I want to call him and ask how he's doing, ...when I wake up in the morning he's the first thing that cross my mind. Perhaps he has missed me but feels too proud to admit... Ugh.. Who am I deceiving? He never missed me. He never cares or give a fuck about what I'm going through.
Mimi is here now. At least my sister understands me better than anyone. I thought she broke up with Lexis but I'm thinking they've solved their differences.
Are you guys back again... Like together? I asked her contemplating.
Nope...he came to fetch me at Yo-yo's...Mimi answered
What's wrong with you Sister? Are you blind or you are trying to be one... I quizzed
Why? Why would you think so.. I'm not blind. I just don't want him to get the wrong ideas... Like I'm urging him on or something. She explained
Don't you see? Lexis will literally kill himself for you. That dude is dying inside because of you.. He loves deeply.. You're so lucky yet so blind. I tried to pump some sense into Mimi, knowing she's so stubborn and stupid.
Can we stop talking about me and Lexis for once? Please! I'm trying to put my shit together for crying out loud! She yelled.
OK OK there.. Easy on yourself.. I tried to calm her down
She looked at me as though she was trying to fix a missing puzzle
Has he called or texted to apologize? She asked, referring to Justin
No... I replied, trying not to sound so hurt.. But she already knows me like the back of her hand. She knows I'm trying to play tough but I'm breaking down inside
Have you called him or texted him to demand for apology? She asked again
No I haven't.....yet. I said and I added yet because I was thinking of doing that
It's good you haven't and it will be better you don't... Suz, this is the time you need to think things through about this guy you sooo much love.. She snapped.
I don't know why but any time Justin was around, she would avoid him like a plague ...she doesn't show much concern about my happiness.
Do you care about me for once? Huh... Mimi. Do you? Why are you so bitter and unforgiving. Yes. Justin messed up but you doesn't or who wouldn't? Must I be like this because you are this way and want me to be the same? At this moment I'm getting carried away with emotions cause I really wanted her to understand how I feel. I'm in love with Justin
I'm sorry but you are getting me wrong here Suz....its not what you think. You needed my opinion and I'm giving it. Why are you overreacting and getting frustrated about that? If you don't need myself then just don't come to me for them, making me look like the bad person here
Excuse me... She said and walked away into her bedroom. Slamming the door.
As much as she was trying to be right. This is my feelings we're talking about and I can't just push it aside as though it never exist. I'm not like her who was able to push a good guy away. Even with a good guy she has been with all this while.. She's my sister, I love her and I hate having arguments with her but this time I have to take matters into my own hands and handle my relationship.
I put on the TV , sat in an armchair and watched a cartoon movie, smurf. Cartoon movies seems to calm me... After a while I heard a knock on the door. I was wondering if it was Lexis coz I wasn't expecting any visitor especially at 9:00pm
Justin in Character.
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RomanceShe may be a lot of things but bitch isn't one... I tried to defend myself which only makes matters worse coz Lexis didn't seem to like it.. He shook his head in contemplation 'Cheesy.".. Jay said and rolled his eyes at us, sitting down and tapping...
