Perfect Sense

CHAPTER 20

Chapter 20: April 30th

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"Let love rewind

Your twisted heart

and overflow

your fractured soul, 

until you're no longer

tangles and broken." 

-perry poetry-

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| K I R U N |

It has been a little over a week since the pub incident. Indah did not talk to me much save for the short replies I got. Each day, I asked her how she was and each day, I got the same reply: I am fine. Nothing more, nothing less. The track meet was a week away and things were in a rush. School was not helping at all with the assignments and projects due along with the resume of ours for the following year internships.

Today, the sun was high and the boys and I were out on the tracks, doing laps.

"You leaving tomorrow?" asked Ahren and I turned to him, still on my lane.

"Yeah"

"Need someone to come with you?" he asked again and I shook my head, no. Last year, I was there with Indah and the year before. She had made me promise that I'd bring her there with me each year. Somehow, we got over our differences just that one day. This year, however, I was not so sure about her appearance.

"No. Its okay" I replied and he nodded, running ahead of me. Should I tell her I was leaving tomorrow? Maybe I should leave her a message? A call?

"YO K! RUN!" I didn't know I was standing in the middle of the tracks until Kwan called me out. I shook my head clear of any thoughts and began jogging towards the idiots I call my friends.

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I didn't call her nor did I text her. It was 3am in the morning and I was wide awake. I would have to ask dad to write an apology letter to the Dean for missing my lectures today but I can't do much. I would have to be back by the afternoon though to catch some sleep before over time classes tomorrow.

By four in the morning, I was up and ready to leave. I was dressed in jeans and white tees and a navy blue cardigan. My black one is still with Indah. I took my travel bag pack and put a pair of sweats and tees inside along with a few advils and bottles of water. I then placed my headphones, wallet and charger in another compartment. I took the bag, my phone and my car keys before slipping on a pair of converse and taking my Nike flip flops in the other hand. I locked the door behind me after checking that I had everything. The sun was still not up and it was 5am now. If I leave Bangkok now, I'd probably arrive there by 8am.

I was leaving for Kanchanaburi. The one place I visit every year on April 30th. This is my mom's province. She lived here in her final days, claiming this place was calming. So every year, I come here just to be with her memories. Memories before she left us to be. She died when I was around 5 and a half I think, and Krys was a year old. It was a few months after Krys turned a year old. So she doesn't remember mum much. But I do. So I visit here each year.

"You were thinking of leaving me, weren't you?" I halted on my tracks and turned to the gray haired girl leaning on the lobby wall in front of me. She was dressed in jeans, tees and my cardigan with converse. We almost matched. Almost.