N A M G I | S U G A M O N | Y O O N J O O N |K I M N A M J O O N x M I N Y O O N G I
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" Love can indeed kill "
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"Namjoon, are you alright?" the cat-looking male asked worriedly, as he rubbed the younger's back in small circular motions when he started to cough minutes ago and it still wouldn't stop until now.
Namjoon looked up at the male as he grunts a little and smiles weakly at the older, "Y-yeah I'm fine hyung. It's just a cold, nothing to be worry about." He said as his other hand went to put the white handkerchief in his pockets and gripping on it tightly, red liquid was to be seen on the white cotton square cloth.
"Well, you've been coughing up lately in these past few days, Joon. Are you sure it's just a cold? What if it's something worse? You know, you should take a rest first and I'll go finish the lyrics of the song." Yoongi said as he gave his beautiful gummy smile at the younger, his pale hands patting Namjoon's shoulder.
Namjoon's eyes widened, "No, hyung! That's unfair. We should help each other together. I don't want to be a burden to you, not helping you and all because I'm sick!" The younger exclaimed as he pursed his lips to a small pout.
Yoongi shooked his head, a small tired sigh escaping his own lips, "Joon, you are not a burden. Your health is more important than work, okay? I can handle myself. I'll contact you if I need some help, but first you need to rest."
"But hyung-"
"No buts! Now shoo, I'll text you as soon as I come back home."
Namjoon couldn't do anything but to do what his hyung said, a small smile plastered on his face as he grabbed his things and placed it inside of his bag, he can feel the older's eyes at his back and he blushed a little and turned around to face Yoongi.
"Bye Hyung. See ya." He waved his hand at the other male and opened the door for him to get outside. A soft sigh escaped his lips as he began to walk towards the elevator, pressing the down button.
Yoongi being caring to him is one of the reasons why the younger was so inlove with him. The older rapper would always take care of him when he was sick and was always there to help him, whether from composing new songs or carrying heavy bags of grocery for him.
And oh god, Yoongi's gummy smile and eyes turning to cute moon like crescents and laughs are enough to make the younger melt. He love Yoongi's smile and laugh. Hearing or seeing the older smile and laugh, makes butterflies flutter around his stomach and his heart beating increasingly fast. He's so whipped for the older.
But at the same time he was suffering from one-sided love from the older and this illness called Hanahaki Disease.
As he got down to the ground floor and through the building's exit, the cold gust of the wind collided with his face, and he felt so cold despite wearing a coat and a scarf on, Namjoon began to cough again. He reached for his handkerchief on his pockets and covered it on his mouth.
The male swiftly moved his feet to move away as his cough became too unbearable for him. Spitting out some snowy coloured petals from his plump lips.
He can feel his throat drying yet again, and it was hard to breath for Namjoon. All he can feel when he is trying to breathe in and out is the flower petals that was inside of his lungs, slowly brimming up to the top.
He knew one day, his lungs will be overflowing with these beautiful yet deadly flower petals and will kill him.
The latter also knew that he can go to surgery in order to remove the illness, but his emotions will come off too as well. But Namjoon refused, saying to the doctor that offered him the surgery,
"I'd rather die, than to feel nothing at all."
He began to walk to the almost empty streets of the city, letting out a despondent sigh, he looked at his handkerchief that has blood stained on it, with a few white soft petals stained with the red liquid.
He just loves Yoongi so much, it hurt him that his time in this world is slowly decreasing. But he can't help it. He didn't mean to fall in love with the older.
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"You're getting worse, Joon."
Seokjin, one of Namjoon's close friends, said. He looked at the younger with worry on his eyes as he continued to rub his back.
"I-I'm fine." Namjoon said, removing Jin's hand on his back.
"No, you're not. Stop saying you are when you're probably going to die just because Yoongi can't reciprocate the feelings you have for him."
Namjoon just smiled weakly and looked at his hands, scoffing. "Well, we can't force him to love a person that he doesn't love, it would be no use."
The younger's eyes watered a bit and sighed softly, "Love can indeed kill."
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Namjoon was in his bedroom, a thick fluffy blanket covering his whole frame that was trembling. His body was weak, can't get up properly. He was on the side of his bed, gripping tightly on the trampled photo that was on his hand. It was a picture of Yoongi.
The younger covered his mouth, beginning to cough so hard, tears brimming up to the corner of his beautiful brown eyes that was slowly losing it's colour.
He pulled his hand away, his hand was covered with the red liquid along with the soft petals. He just sighed, he was getting weaker by the second. Time was ticking so fast.
The male can't help but to let the tears fall down his face, he bit his bottom lip harshly, preventing him from sobbing, closing his eyes.
He looked at the picture of the feline like male and smiled widely, his chapped and dry lips trembling.
He remembered when Yoongi introduced him to Hoseok, his boyfriend. The younger felt his heart shatter to a million pieces.
And that's when his disease got worse.
Namjoon looked up at his room's ceiling, coughing, and kissed the small photo and saying,
"I.. I love you, Min Yoongi."
Before he took his last breathe, his lungs was filled by flower petals to the top and closed his eyes, a small pained smile on his dry lips. His hold on the trampled picture now loosened and his bed was covered by snow white coloured petals.
"I will love you until it kills me and even then, you'll be in my heart."
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It's been so long since I have last updated and I'm truly sorry for that. I'm in a writer's block for so long and I'm sorry if this one shot is crappy and short. I do take requests too :))
By the way, I was wondering if you guys know what is the app that can create like twitter dms and gdms since I really need it. If you know please comment down below and I'll try my best to update more.
Thank you for reading this one shot uwu
