This is me

Entry Seven

I'm crying inside
But I laugh on the outside
Don't wanna go out
But I don't wanna be alone
I say I'm fine
Instead of burdening others with my problems
They can be used against me
But I'm sorry that I can't be the person you want me to be
Perfection wasn't on my list to identify me
I'm that girl that no one wants to be around
But when they want advice or help
They come to me
Yeah I'll help you knowing that you won't help me
Because I'm that girl that everyone thinks I'm happy
Well......
I'm not who you say I am
I'm depressed
Alone
Sad
The complete opposite of happy or fine
No one notices that I fake a smile
They think it's genuine
I'm sorry but it's not
I'm that person pleaser
But I don't please myself
No one can save me but one
The guy in my heart
He is somewhere in the world
But I don't know where
I don't know who he is
But I have learned that my husband is out there
And I know that he'll save me
Save me from my depression, my sadness
And return my hope and my happiness