This is me

Entry Twenty Two

It sucks
Falling for someone
You know
You can't have
It sucks
Trusting someone
Knowing
They'll stab you in the back
It sucks
Trying to push forward
Knowing
You'll end up being pulled backwards
It sucks
Living a life
You know
Could be better
It sucks
Being nice to someone
Knowing
They are mean to you
It sucks
Feeling not loved
Knowing
That you are
It sucks
Feeling not good enough
Knowing
Yeah maybe I am
It sucks
Running the same race
Knowing
You'll never win
It sucks
Giving up
Knowing
You failed everyone
It sucks
Being depressed
Knowing
You should be happy
It sucks
Saying your fine
Knowing
That your not
It sucks
That liking that one boy
Knowing
He just wanted to fūck you
It sucks
That liking that one girl
Knowing
She's not gay
But you know what doesn't suck
Someone telling you
That your
Beautiful
Pretty
Funny
Smart
Nice
And your trying so hard to accept it
But you know
that you've been hurt too many times
Because of the lies
The people told you from your past
I know I try really hard to accept it
I try to accept that
I'm not
Fat
Dumb
Retarded
And that I have
A great
Smile
Personality
Body
And that I am
Amazing
Pretty
Smart

But it's hard for me
Cuz the scars have cut deep
And they still need time to heal

I know that one person isn't lying
He knows it too
But I've been hurt too many times
That I deny it
He's up for the challenge
I hope he can complete
Before he leaves me
For someone much better
Cuz honestly
I'm not that great
But he says otherwise
And he reassures me
Everyday
That I'm good enough
I'm happy for that
That he thinks that of me

And I'm happy that my friends
Accept my weird and crazy side
They are up for the challenge as well
To reassure me
That I am good enough to be their friend

Cuz all wounds need in the end
Is medicine, care, and bandages to forget the past

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Yo my dudes so I know I've been active a lot and I have a lot of entries for this specific book