Panel // Daniel Howell x Reader

75 Still Feel

Sally's p.o.v

Yes. I miss relationships. I miss having a man in bed with me.
Having a woman feels too much like a sleepover rather than a relationship.  I don't know.  I think i just need to adjust into the whole homosexual relationships thing.

When I was with Ryan it made me realise how much I missed a man. How I missed their affection.

Not saying women can give affection differently to others but, there was a similarity that the men I dated had when they dated me. I have only dated one female -Mia- so i can't say much.

When I picture the suitable guy, I see a tall guy with blonde hair and soft features. Maybe Australian. He loves spending time with me but he also doesn't want to spend every waking hour with me. Me will hold hands with me and kiss me when I need it most. He can be my best friend as well as my boyfriend.

See that sound too similar to Ryan. (Except the hair and Nationality part.) But Ryan is too much of a best friend in my opinion.

The perfect woman would run away with me. She'd make me adventurous.  But she'd be so clever. She would take me to a nineteen-twenties bar with jazz and dancing. Somebody who will take me places.

Now I look back and that's not Mia.  Was a pleasantly grounded. She would encourage you to think before your actions, not be a forward thinker.

I snap out of my daze as an aggresive knock comes from the door. I look round for Y/N.  Frick. She's at Dan's.
I stand for the door and wipe from from my lap- making me look half presentable.

"Hello?" I say opening the door to a female who looks similar in age to me.
She has a name tag labeled Nikki and it has a red paw print beside.

"Hi. Would you have a y spare change for me? I am raising money for this foundation," she says handing me a form. It's got that glossy ink and pictures of animals on it.

"If you have any spare change- big or small- would you mind giving it? Even better you can come down and adopt an animal." She smiles.
An animal. An animal would help my loneliness. I suppose...

"You're land lord allows animals that create little noise. Cats, Rabbits, well trained dogs..." I reach to a basket beside the door, grabbing my wallet. I pull out four pounds and put the coins into the bucket. Nikki smiles and thanks me. I Nod and wave her off.

Y/N got home a few hours later.

"OPINION." I announce. She jerks her head in my direction. Slowly taking off her scarf.

"And animal." I hand her the form.

"This has dogs. We aren't allowed dogs." She has ds it's back to me. I choose my arms.

"Cat. We can get a cat." I say. I want this. I kinda need this.
Y/N winces. 

"If you think... if you think a cat is good... but you need something like a weeks notice. You need to tell the land lady."
I smile and bounce to my feet and walk to my door.

"Wait.  I thought that we had a land lord?" I say turning on my heels, nearly hitting my he'd on the door frame.

"Married couple." She says with no expression.

"Alex and Leigh- which is the mister?" I say.

She hesitates.

"I actually don't know..." she says with slight concern but a smile on her face.

We laugh (nose exhale?) And turn back into my room and change into clean clothing. I look at the clock.
4:36.

This day has lasted weeks.

I throw on a clean pair of leggings and some jumper with embroidery on it and some converse. I walk down to the land lord/lady office.

A woman is sitting at her table with forms displayed in front of her.

I knock on the door. The flustered woman turns to me.

"Oh hi Smith. What's up?" She says pushing a hair out from her face and crossing her legs.

"Hi. Uhm, I'm just considering getting a pet cat.." I say. She sighs and pulls out a drawer from the filing cabinet.
She pulls out a few sheets of paper and flicks through them then grabs her stapler and joins the paper together.

"I swear, your the eighth person to come down "considering" a pet." She sighs and hands me the bundle. "Please make these back to me by the end of the coming month." I smile in confimation and wave her a goodbye.

I dance back into the flat to see Y/N typing on her phone. I wave the forms in the air. She smirks and shakes her head.

"You thought that I wasn't gonna commit. But I will gt myself a cat." I smile. Y/N laughs subtly and then turn to me.

"You get that pussy."