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44. Failure

I couldn't do anything I just stood there frozen as they were about to fight I wanted to stop it but no words came out. I watched as they fought, I watched as Gun talked him down although I should know first hand that life isn't all sparkles and rainbows but what was going on felt so cruel. "It's sad so many people out here and not one is stepping up to help you " at that moment I unfroze and walked over to Gun. "Ha-nuel " Johan said weakly as I knelt down next to his head "Gun you're going to far" I said a confident look in my face "Heh you call this too far you don't ev-" I got up and grabbed his tie pulling him close to my face "Get that fake ass persona out of my face and let me talk to Gun" I glared at him but he didn't say anything but grabbed me by my waist everyone was a little scared for me but I wasn't "Just let me do my job sweetness please I'll explain everything later" he whispered in my ear but I rolled my eyes and pulled myself away from him he smirked but went back to what he was doing until Zack came out of nowhere defending Johan. Zack and Gun started fighting then Vasco and Daniel came in I started getting worried for my friends, Gun is freakishly strong and to see someone land a hit on him other than Goo was surprising. I started walking up to the group that was fighting and decided that it was enough I grabbed Gun's neck after Daniel kicked him on the shoulder and swiped under his legs and brought him down I sat on him and turned to the guys who were completely livid. "Hey I don't know much about whatever is going on but I hate seeing people get hurt especially my friends but from what I've gathered why don't you destroy the four crews" I said Daniel had a face of revelation and agreed with me "A lot happened ; the illegal lottery tickets the fake bank accounts so many of my friends got involved a lot of them got hurt and one even went to prison and it turns out that those four crews were behind everything... I will not sit idly by and do nothing anymore fighting might not be the solution to everything but I want to protect my friends " Daniel said I nodded and got up off of Gun who was calm by now and saw Johan leaving I caught up with him and hugged him. "Let's not say goodbye just see you soon " I said and he hugged me tightly and somehow I could feel him pain and disappointment. "Well I guess I lost " he said but I ruffled his hair and connected our foreheads together "I wish I could tell you to stay but I can't stop you" I gave him one last hug and we went our separate ways. " Goodluck Daniel" I whispered as I hugged him bye and hugged Vasco bye "I'm coming for my tattoo next Friday " I said he pat my head as I ran to the car (as fast as heels could take me) and got in taking off my heels. "Did you really have to sit on me" he laughed I blushed and punched his shoulder "Shut up you're always starting drama " I puffed out my cheeks turned away from him. Gun parked the car on the side of the rode and sighed "Fuck I can't drive with a boner" he whispered to himself thinking I couldn't hear I looked down at his pants and turned away quickly 'He's big like really really big!!' I screamed in my head but shook the thoughts off and I asked him why did we stop "Nothing I'll drop you off home I bet your parents have been wondering where you've been " the car ride was silent but comfortable as he drove me home but when we got there I saw Tae waiting outside and he seemed angry. " Young lady where were you?!" He yelled as I got out the car I laughed noticing mom and dad just laughing at how Tae was so over dramatic. "Hey Tae " I said going inside and saying him to my mom and dad but after that night I just mostly stayed home. I didn't really feel well

I felt like everything was just too weird. How everything bad just happens in a blink of an eye and then suddenly everything is back to normal. " I'll just sleep it off" I kept telling myself until my mom decided that I had to go back to school on my way there I met with Jay and we just talked about some personal stuff for a while "I just feel like everything has been too easy like my life is just some poorly written fan-fiction" I told him he nodded listening to me vent my problems. " I want to do something for myself , I'm tired of life just being so easy nowadays to the point that I just get everything I want. I'm probably just complaining but I want to make a name for myself I'm want to be ...me" I told him just sighing her nodded understanding my problems " How about trying to get back into singing? " he wrote down for me I thought about it nodding thinking that would be a good idea

"Yeah maybe you're right " I said staring up the sky as we walked by the gas station