heartbeat | smiitz

f i f t h t e e n

"my heads a very scary place right now"

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its been two months. two months since they last saw each other, and two weeks since the break up.

they promised each other it would work out, that time zones wouldn't be a problem but things got to overwhelming and the couple couldn't keep up.

and of course, this hurt both of them. they loved each other, it just wasn't meant to be at that time.

all the friend group was worried and so were fans. both of the boys had changed since the break up.

posting schedules were off (as if fitz ever had one) they never wanted to play together, they weren't active on an social platforms.

but for cameron it was worse, remember the mention of how he may have depression? now he was pretty set on the fact that he did. he never slept, bad thoughts always filled his mind, he was unmotivated, sad most of the time for no reason. he did announce that he'd be on a break for a while, until he can figure shit out.

cameron pulled up john's contact, he had important stuff to talk about.

"hey cam! what's up?" his cheerful voice said through the speaker.

"hey um, when did you realize that you may of had..depression?"

it was quiet on the other side of the line for awhile and it made cameron nervous.

"i don't know, i looked up symptoms and saw i had a lot of them, then went to a therapist. cam do you think you have depression?"

cameron thought for a little, does he think that or is he just overthinking?

"m-maybe.."

"hm. okay, just go to a therapist and they will diagnose you and talk about treatment plans. most like medications and constant therapy appointments. call me if you need anything okay?"

"okay, thank you john."

"of course." then cameron hung up, sighing heavily and running his hands through his hair.

guess it was time to book a therapy appointment.

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