heartbeat | smiitz

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"its all good baby"

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cameron couldn't sleep, what a surprise.

jaren and john showed up randomly and were sleeping out in the living room. which also meant cameron couldn't leave the house.

suddenly someone was at cameron's bedroom door, when did it open?

cameron panicked, but calmed down once he heard the soft voice if jaren.

"h-hi sorry for scaring you. i was wanted to talk about things," cameron sat up, waving his hand telling jaren to come in.

"i want to talk about us."

cameron nodded, quietly taking a deep breath.

"john told me you might have depression? is it because of me?" jaren whispered, sadness in his eyes.

cameron shook his head, "no, i think i've always had it. it just got worse after we broke up.."

jaren nodded, "im so sorry."

"don't be sorry j, it wasn't your fault."

they sat in silence for a while before jaren spoke again.

"the first kiss we had, i never did tell you what i felt." cameron looked over and jaren.

"it was beautiful. like, i don't even know how to explain it," jaren chuckled. "it was like all my insides just exploded and the world around us turn to black it was just us and the music in that moment and god i think i feel in love, not just with you but with that kiss and that night."

both boys blushed, realizing what the canadian had just confessed.

"you just touched me once and it was electric, you made me fall in love with you with a simple touch cameron."

"i still love you," cameron quickly said.

"i think i still love you too."

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