Always You || Simon Minter (miniminter)

Chapter 5

I wake up to one of the worst headaches of my life, I feel like I am going to pass out any minute now. I sit up, noticing I'm still in my clothes from last night, confused I get up and get changed into a black pair of sweatpants and a bottle green sweatshirt. I look at my self in the mirror, wiping off my makeup, I remember what happened last night. I kissed Simon for a dare, then he kissed me, willingly. I groan and cover my face with my hands, oh no how am I going to deal with this today, does everyone know? Does Simon even remember? I guess I'll find out.

I open my door and almost scream as there's a tall blonde boy standing there, a sad look written on his face. "Oh uh Simon hi," I smile weakly, hoping he doesn't remember anything. His facial expression suddenly changes to something happier.

"JJ and I have just made breakfast if you want any?" He looks rough, he was extremely drunk and I'm now sure he doesn't remember, thank god I don't think I could deal with that stress just now. I nod and follow him to the kitchen where it is JJ, Vikk, Simon and I, Jide turns round to me and gives me a big hug, making me groan at how shit I feel.

"Here take these," Vikk slides a packet of paracetamol over the kitchen island and I smile at him, thanking him with a nod. Tobi walks in and groans, joining the rest of us in feeling shit, he makes everyone tea and we all sit, too ill to even talk.

"So Millie, why don't we make you a YouTube channel?" Vikk starts the conversation, looking over at me with a puzzled look on his face. As I go to answer his question, Jide beats me to it and unfortunately he told them the answer I didn't want them to know.

"oh she already has a channel. She just doesn't show her face," he pauses for a minute realising that I haven't mentioned it for a reason, he turns to look at me and mouths a 'sorry' in my direction. "Wait what really? What do you do on it?" Simon looks at me, not really knowing what's going on.

"I uh play games." I mumble, absolutely embarrassed I can't believe they now know, I didn't want anyone to know. "She plays like GTA, Dead By Daylight and Black Ops Zombies, So not too different from us." Jide speaks, embarrassing me ever more, I think he knows what he's doing. For a while now JJ has been trying to convince me to show my face in my videos but I simply refuse to do so, yes I make videos but that doesn't mean people need to know what I look like.

"We should totally make a video together!" Simon beams, a massive smile across his face, he honestly is adorable. "She's good at zombies, she could teach us how to play," Jide grins in my direction, loving the fact that he has brought me out of my comfort zone and that he is one step closer to me showing my face to the world. Wrong, I'm not.

"Yeah for sure, but I'm still not showing my face. Nice try Jide." He rolls his eyes and pouts like a child, the other boys laugh quietly, clearly dying inside.

"Why won't you show your face?" Tobi questions me, making me think. "I guess it's just a sense of privacy, I like doing videos and playing games but I don't see why people need to see what I look like," I shrug and Tobi nods, getting where I'm coming from.

"So you'll teach us how to play zombies, we'll do a video and not show your face. Deal?" Vikk smiles over at me, clearly excited. "Yes." I laugh at how adorable Vik is, he is honestly so cute.

"Oh shit guys I need to go stay in London for a day or two, will you be okay here Millie? I just have some stuff to do." Jide walks over to me wrapping his arm around my shoulders, squeezing me slightly. I look up at him, a worried look across his face, "Yeah of course I'll be fine here," I smile reassuring him.

"I'll look after her," Simon smiles at Jide who receives a smile back.

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Jide has now left for London and as the other boys have now went home it's just Simon, Josh, Vikk and I left. Everyone's gone to their rooms to start recording, I'm in Jide's room setting up the game, almost at the same time the three boys join and the game chat erupts with conversation. They all do their intros and then it's my turn, "Heya Guys! Welcome to another zombies video, this one is kinda different as I am joined by Simon, Vikk and Josh from the sidemen!"

Everyone cheers and begins to laugh, "I am teaching them how to play zombies so this should be fun." I join in on the laughter as I launch the game, the boys talk about a bunch on nonsense as the game loads but as soon as the game loads they all just stand still, "Guys?" I call out, waiting for someone to move.

"Go on then tell us what to do," Simon pipes up, it's clear there's a smile plastered on his face I can tell through the tone of his voice. "Oh god Right Simon go open that door, Vikk just focus on killing and Josh follow me," I lead the boys through the game, surprisingly we make it far for them not being very good but soon enough the three of them are down and It's all up to me.

"I think this is it, it's over!" Josh yells as his characters bleeds out, next is Simon then Vikk. "Cook a grenade, I dare you," Vikk laughs through the mic, and I do as I am told. Holding down the R1 button, eventually my character blew up and a big 'Game Over' flashed across the screen.

"Well that's us finished here," we all go off and go away to do our own things. I decide to start editing the video right away, getting my laptop out I move over to my bed and begin editing.

About 10 minutes later there's a soft knock on my door, "come in," I yell just loud enough for whoever on the other side of the door to hear. The door slowly opens, revealing a tall blonde boy with a big smile on his face.

"Thought you'd want some company since JJ isn't here and Vikk and Josh have gone out to get dinner," he smiles softly, coming in and closing the door behind him. "Sure, I'm just editing my video," I move over on the bed to give him room to sit down, I feel the bed dip as he takes a seat next to me.

"I was just wondering, why do you not show your face? you're beautiful, everyone should know." He turns to face me, a puzzling look across his face, a small smile playing on his lips. I look away from him, feeling slightly embarrassed, "I guess I just don't want people to know what I look like, I don't want to disappoint anyone," I shrug it off, trying to change the subject, I just don't want people to think I look one way and to find out I look completely different, things are going well just now for my channel and I don't want to ruin that.

"Millie, I'm sure your fans will love you even more if they knew the person they were supporting," He frowns slightly, clearly noticing I'm uncomfortable talking about this, "if you ever want to show your face, I can help you make the video if you want." Simon places a hand on my back, rubbing it in circles reassuring me that it will be okay, I look up at him and our eyes meet instantly.

"Maybe," I smile at him, gaining a smile in return, maybe hes right.