My Idol

Music video shoot

A while had passed now since Jungkook had found IU and Taehyung together at the Halloween party and he honestly had trouble getting the things he had seen out of his mind. He never brought up what he had seen to IU or Taehyung, neither did he ever think he would. He had no idea how to feel. He was so...confused.

One thing that had never left Jungkook's mind however was well, why had he given him so much advise and support to help him get IU even though he had feelings for her as well? Jungkook's first explanation had been that Taehyung had just wanted to be a supportive friend and decided to let him get the girl because of the feelings he had, had for her for so long. But at the same time he saw them together, Taehyung must have confessed and that was at the Halloween festival not long after he had been given such amazing advise from Taehyung. It just didn't make sense.

Could Taehyung have just been using him and playing with his feelings just so that he could take IU away from him? Jungkook shook his head. No, he refused to believe that. Taehyung was his best friend, no his big brother he would never betray him like that. But then...why? What was Taehyung thinking?

Jungkook honestly just didn't know and now he had to awkwardly spend a lot of time with both his precious big brother and his big brother's lover whom he also had feelings for. This did not feel uncomfortable at all. Jungkook sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. Why? Why did this have to happen. Why Taehyung? Jungkook's heart ached just at the thought.

Now he was on his way to the beach which was one of the filming locations for the music video, he and IU were supposed to be filming for their song. He took a deep breath. He hoped everything turned out alright. Even if IU, the woman he loved and Taehyung, one of the dearest people in his life had feelings for each another he had to be professional. He was a musician he had to be able to handle situations such as these ones. He couldn't let anything ruin his performance.

Once he arrived he parked his car and made his way towards the sandy environment that awaited him. As soon as he arrived, IU jumped on him and enveloped him in a hug. "Yay! Hi Jungkook you're finally here! I'm so excited for this video!" She squealed. Jungkook laughed awkwardly in response and lightly patted IU's head. "Ha ha...yeah." Jungkook responded nervously. IU shot Jungkook a questioning look before then shrugging and making her way towards the camera crew.

The directors and producers were also beside them, instructing them and guiding them on what they were to do. If their dance involved choreography in which Jungkook and IU would have to go close to each other, he would blush madly and his cheeks would flush brightly. But then soon after a guilty feeling would rush through him as he would remember the secret relationship between IU and Taehyung.

Jungkook and IU danced and acted with all their might and things wound up turning out better than he had expected. Even though he was nervous at first he managed to calm down, not wanting to repeat the mistakes he had made previously. Even if he were upset about the fact that his crush and best friend were dating each other he was still a professional and prided himself in his work. He no longer wanted to mix his personal life with his professional one. He would probably face many other emotional challenges but he would have to learn to overcome them if he wanted to continue working in the job in which he was so passionate about.

Once their work for the video was done for the day Jungkook, IU and the staff ate lunch together. IU sat close next to Jungkook, a bright smile on her face. "Hey...Jungkook have you ever...fallen for anyone before?" She asked suddenly. Jungkook's eyes widened after hearing IU's question and he looked away, covering his eyes with his bangs. "Yes...I have...once." He simply said in a soft tone of voice.

"What did it...feel like?" She asked curiously while tapping her fingers on the handle of the bench that they were currently sitting on. "It felt...painful, the worst pain I've ever felt in fact. She had feelings for someone else and I never even had the chance to even tell her how I felt." He told her in the saddest tone of voice he had ever spoken in. He could feel his eyes begin to water. "You know Jungkook...I have someone I like. But it isn't a bad feeling for me. It's exciting, happy and new. He said himself that he has feelings for me." She said, the brightest smile on her face and her eyes full of glee.

Jungkook faked a smile as he faced her. "Th...that's g...great IU b...but I have to go now. I...have work to do with the hyungs." He lied. He then grabbed his things and left the area. He bolted into his car once he was far enough and drove as fast as he could. As soon as he got inside his car a shower of tears spilled from his eyes. He knew that he wouldn't have been able to contain himself had he stayed beside her any longer.

After a long drive he finally reached his house. Jin and Jimin were playing hide and seek. RM, Suga and Jhope were busy writing a new rap together and V was on his own playing overwatch. Jungkook removed his shoes and slowly entered the house, receiving small waves from the members as he did.

Taehyung grinned as he noticed him. "Finally, you're home! It's getting boring on my own, wanna play with me?" He requested. Jungkook gave him a weak smile before shaking his head. "Sorry, I'm a little tired after the shoot, maybe later." He told him, sniffling in the process.

Taehyung noticed this and a concerned look plastered onto him. "Were you crying?" He asked Jungkook worriedly. Jungkook shook his head reassuringly, but felt more and more tears fall down his cheeks as he did so. "Is everything ok? Did something happen with IU?" He asked, as if he suddenly had no knowledge of why he could possibly be upset. Jungkook wanted to just go up to Taehyung and punch him in the face for lying to him so selfishly but chose not to, to avoid creating a scene. 

The other members began approaching Jungkook also as they noticed his tears. He felt a pair of arms back hug him and he looked behind him to see a certain eye smiling koala named Park Jimin hugging him. "Is everything ok?" He asked him. Jungkook nodded softly, "Y...yeah everything's fine." he sobbed. "Tell us what happened, we always go to each other for everything." Namjoon said softly. Once again Jungkook shook his head, "It's nothing hyungs, honest." He told them. "It's not nothing, dummy. You're literally crying. We're your older brothers. No need to keep your feelings in." Yoongi told him straightforwardly. Jungkook shook his head and dried his eyes with his fingers. "I told you hyungs, I'm fine!" He huffed before racing towards his room.

The members looked at each other with concern in their eyes. Something was up with their maknae and they were not happy. This was the first time that he couldn't come to them with his problems. It must be something serious.

Jungkook jumped onto his bed and cried into his pillow. How was he going to move on if he had to see IU every day until the collab was over and done with and  he had to see Taehyung everyday well...until he was old and retired. He sighed and stared at an old picture on his wall that he had taken with his members. He loved them, he really did. But he didn't think he would be able to stay in a group with Taehyung anymore. He loved him, he really did. He valued him as a brother. But with the pain he was facing he knew it would be too awkward for him to ever be around him again. Jungkook nodded his head confidently as he thought of the decision he had just made.

After his collab with IU is over... he will leave BTS and debut as a solo artist.