Things I couldn't tell you back then and even now

Chapter 4

Diary entry #32

I haven't told you have I?(I know I wouldn't have done that in my sane state but I'm not sure about my drunken confessions) that during wgm was the first time I received a love letter, that you were the first person to give me a love letter and frankly just receiving one was enough, to shatter all the hinges in me holding me back from falling for you, I was on the edge you know, my heart just waiting to be knocked off the cliff. Just a simple love letter was enough, but since you are so unlike other boys, you wouldn't stop at that, that love letter ugh it almost or maybe really did take my sanity away and landed me into this foolish land of lovers.The sincerity in it,Yook you broke the boundaries between virtual and real at that instant. I am quite thankful for your existence in this world and in my life but I know that it can fade away anytime. Perhaps I have still not learnt to love you from a distance.Haha this reminds me of all your exclamations of how I'm such a fast learner, your voice rings in my head, oh how ironic indeed. Maybe I should stop writing before my tears smudge the next words and also I don't like being pathetic.

Goodnight~, hope you have a sweet dream

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You called me today,your voice sounded distant but contained a hint of longing, or maybe I'm just being delusional.You are confusing me Park Sooyoung when I'm already much confused. I don't like this feeling of confusion. Perhaps it's just a growing up thing? Maybe we still aren't ready yet. Knowing what you want too early before you are ready to receive and handle it is painful, beautiful yet painful.

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*some time ago during wgm*

When he made sure she was soundly sleeping after they returned from the swimming pool, he whispered carefully, trying not to wake her up,"hey aegi, thank you for playing with me today, you must be so tired from all your schedules, you have a schedule tomorrow too," he said while pouting,thinking about how hardworking she is and she will be off working tomorrow too,"I hope you had a good time with me. Did I give you hard time? you always say no when I ask that but I hope that's really true and you're comfortable with me. I will make sure to give you many happy memories so they can provide you strength to get by through the hard times during your packed schedule.You look too pretty,my wife."

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(A/N) haha I had this saved since 9 dec but I couldn't add anything to it as usual and I almost forgot about it's existence until today. I mainly held back from updating because this isn't actually progressing to anywhere but I guess this story is of that kind lol.

sorry for the late updates.