It's complicated

Chapter 36

Daniella's POV

I was once again alone tonight. Nothing but me and the emptiness of the hotel room. I was pacing back and forth, gripping my hair and trying to make sense of what happened.

Nothing was adding up though and I felt like punching someone. I hated when nothing seemed to make sense and that's been happening a lot lately. Why couldn't he remember all the good times we shared together as friends?

I screamed in frustration and anger, grabbing the mirror I had and tossed it at the wall. I gasped at what I did and fell to my knees holding my head. What was happening to me nowadays? Nothing was making sense about anything and I was slowly losing my mind, every single second.

My phone started ringing and I don't bother to answer it. It started to ring yet again and I answer without looking at the ID.

"What?" I asked aggravated.

"Daniella please hear me out."

I gasp and look at the caller ID. I don't say anything and I hope he would just hang up. That didn't happen though.

"Daniella, I know what I did was beyond wrong. You don't understand what it's like everyday having to know that I can't make it up to. You don't know how it feels knowing I hurt you. You'll never know how much it kills me inside to see you upset with me and crying." Seth rants.

I feel tears brimming my eyes but I wipe them away. I look at the ceiling praying to God this ends well.

"Daniella, I know you think that I hate you. I wish it was true because all I seem to think about is you. You always seem to pop into my mind and I hate it. I can never focus on my matches because I always imagine you at ringside smiling at me. I'm so sorry for what I've done to you, and if you want me to leave you alone, I will."

"Seth please." I whispered.

"I will leave you alone Daniella because I don't want to hurt you. Daniella I'll leave you alone because I love you and I can't hurt someone I love. Goodbye Daniella." I heard the beep go off.

"Seth? Seth! Please! Please Seth! I'm so sorry Seth! Don't leave me alone Seth!" I cried through the phone.

I knew he wouldn't hear me. He would always avoid me now and it's all because of me. I always have to ruin things for people.

I slid down the wall, tears rolling down my face. I looked to my right and saw the picture of Seth and I at the photo booth on the ground. I picked it up and just stared at it tears slowly falling down.

"Seth, don't leave me alone. I love you Seth." I cried, clutching the picture closely to my chest.

Seth's POV

As soon as I hung up I wanted to call her right back. I wanted to run to her hotel room and just hold her. But I knew I couldn't do that. Not after what I've done to her and I know she'll just get mad at me.

I sighed and sat down on the couch. I needed to find a distraction real fast. I tried playing on the Xbox they had, but I felt her in my arms playing with me. I tried texting people but I kept seeing her name pop up on the screen.

I groaned in frustration when I heard yelling in the hallway. I opened my door and saw Nikki and Daniella yelling at each other.

"Daniella you need to stop doing this to yourself! Look at you, you've gone through half a pack of beer bottles already! He's making you a mess Daniella!" Nikki yelled at her.

"Nikki, don't ever blame Seth for my own actions! I can do whatever the hell I want to! I can get drunk when I'm upset, I can hide in my hotel room and cry, or I can just let it build up inside me like always and wait until I crack!" Daniella snapped at her.