i didn't know how to put this in a message so I decided to do it like this instead. when I first met you I had so much feelings for you, I'd wait days hoping you'd ask me to be your girlfriend, but it never came and that was okay because I valued the relationship we had and I didn't need a title. all the arguments and the smiles, the intimacy and the pain was all worth it for me. it still is. the day you didn't show up to the florist, I cried. I remember talking to my friends days before because you never opened my messages or you'd just ignore them, I thought of the possibility you were busy to reply but deep down I knew you wouldn't show up. I bought an outfit and I felt so beautiful in it, until the day came and it was just silence. sometimes in arguments you'd made me feel like I'm the worst person alive. you had the power to make me extremely high or extremely low. we lost each other again, and my friends kept telling me I should move on and in my head I knew I should've to, but there was something inside that made me hold on. weeks of silence again I found myself reading poems that related to you, missing you like crazy, some days I'd cry because your all I ever wanted. it came to the day where I asked God to help me because I don't know whether all this was worth it, should I move on or fix this. that's when you texted me two days after. i was filled with the feeling of home. because you are my home your that warm fuzzy feeling. i have feelings for you, and every time I decide to run, forget about you I fucking can't. because in my head there's always a space for you. I wrote that like 9 months ago, and now I have to change this because this won't work , whatever this is, I try too hard and I get nothing in return . I'm not ready to hurt again , I just want you to be better, and me too. I imagined us together. But sometimes things don't work out. Some people aren't bound to be together. I know I have tried. From checking up on you. Praying for you. Tagging you quotes. I tried. And maybe the love you speak off is infatuation. When you love someone you try, you sacrifice, you do the small things. I hope you find someone who you actually love and show them that love. maybe we met at the wrong time. Maybe we'll find each other again, i wish you all the happiness
I will always love you
