My Perspective

XI

I never believed in soul ties until I experienced it myself.
Soul ties are not only about sex, it's about the person's
vibe, their personality, their mindset, and even their
existence. You can feel a thousand ways about someone
and fall for them just from being around them and
knowing their minds.

Once you connect with someone's mind, and heart you
automatically tied souls. When your soul is tied, you are
deeply in synced with them emotionally, mentally, and
physically.

Imagine falling in love with one's demeanor and how they
maneuver throughout their life, it amazes you and makes
you want them more. Having that one person to touch
your heart on a different level is everything. Each time
y'all talk, you feel as though they understand you and your
soul. It feels so real at the moment, and it becomes
everything you ever wanted.

I experienced this thing called "soul ties" and till this
moment, I regret letting that person in, and knowing me
the way they did. They knew how gullible I was and took
advantage of my heart. I focused so hard on not being
gullible, and the whole time I was being just that. I
realized so much, this person was the devil in disguise. So
perfect, so touching, so everything that I ever wanted. But
it turned out it was all a cover up, for the real person they
really were.

These people will say and do all the right things to make
you fall, but you began to fall so hard you don't even
realize that the red flags are starting to show.
Being Soul tied will make you do some crazy things, you
allow yourself to go through so much pain, and mental
l
abuse from a person, because you are too attached and in
love. You will catch yourself staying with this person,
because you love them and don't want to lose them. You
never see their flaws or the red flags, you sit there and take
it all. There's something about this person that makes you
not want to give up on them and what y'all have. You give
them the benefit of the doubt the first time and they go
right back to do the same thing. But do you care? No, you
don't, you would sacrifice your happiness and health just
for someone who is killing you slowly.

Imagine Someone transferring all their demons inside of
you by sex. One time of intercourse with someone can
change your life forever, especially if the sex is raw and
uncut. Demons are real and those who suffer from the bad
will do anything to let them go.

When your souls are synced together, through sex, and
not just from their vibe and energy, you become a whole
different person. Being soul tied is never a positive thing.
You become in tuned with your partner on a spiritual
level. Your partner is now able to trigger your happiness,
your anger, and your sadness at any given moment in
your life.

One person, one soul, one energy, and one night of love
making, can change you forever. Your life could either
change for the better or for the worse.

I remember being with a person whom at one point
caused so much happiness in my life. They brought joy,
and they lit my soul up with their words. I was a dummy
for love, a dummy for attention, a dummy for a toxic
person. A fell hard for words, and not actions. I made
myself believe that maybe this person really is trying to be
there for me, show me real, show me the love I deserved.
I believed that this person was too perfect, and because
they were I was determined to give them the world and
more.

I gave this person my body, not knowing that I gave them
my soul. The moment it happened everything changed.
My life got taken advantage of the moment I gave myself
to this person is the moment I completely lost who I was
and became someone who I wasn't.

I became negative, I became angry, I became stupid, I
became a dying soul. I felt like the real demon, I stayed
with a person who used me, and no matter what they said
I knew in my heart, that I was being robbed of my life.
A person could sex on multiple people and not feel
anything, but also not knowing that those same people
have demons too, and they travel. So, me being with a
person and letting them dog me out, cheat with other
people, and beat my innocent soul into a pulp, I received
more demons each time.

I felt trapped, every time I found out about anything this
person did to me, I would cry and feel worthless of
myself. But I stayed... Why didn't I leave? I didn't leave
because I was tied. Everything we did, each time we spent
together, every argument, every tear, every kiss, every
intercourse, every bittersweet moment that we shared, I
couldn't let go.

I sacrificed everything to be with this person, and to
receive the same love and energy that I gave them back. I
never received it; I received pain and unwanted issues.
The person never cared about me, my feelings or anything
pertaining to me, it was easy for them to leave or let me
leave. The only time they acted as if I existed is when I'm
in presence. I acted delusional sometimes out of nowhere,
I was in love with them, I did love them, yes, I had

feelings, yes, I wanted to be with them forever and yes, I
was soul tied. But one day, I realized how stupid I looked.
For loving someone who didn't love me, being in love
with someone who wasn't in love with me, wanting and
wanting to be with someone who doesn't want or want to
be with me. My soul is completely tied to someone who
doesn't care about me! How fucking stupid and
delusional right?

I did nothing but try to play a role that wasn't meant for
me to play, and I looked completely stupid. But then it
came to me, I really began to get it... to get it all. This
whole time I've been telling myself "You already too
deep, everything you have for this person is genuine and
pure. If you leave, you'll just hurt yourself. If you leave
you have got to watch the person you love do all these
things you wanted to do with someone else, so stay and
you wouldn't miss out. Stay so they know you actually
want to be here for the long run and watch them grow.
Stay because too many left and gave up on them. Stay
because of this, stay because of that." Not knowing the
whole time, I wasn't wanted in their life.

I asked this person; did they know how it feels to not feel
wanted? To feel like they are always bothering somebody
every second of the day. Do they not know how it feels to
force yourself to not care or love someone? Because the
person's actions show you that it isn't vice versa?
I forced myself a lot. I stayed when I was supposed to
leave, but me being myself with the type of heart I have
and being gullible. I stayed, I allowed those demons to eat
me alive from inside, I allowed my soul to be taken, but
the demon itself.

I used to blame myself for putting myself in situations like
that, I even blamed myself for getting treated the way I
was, considering I allowed it. But later realizing that it is
never my fault to why someone decided to destroy me the
way they did.

We exist in a world full of criminals, good people,
abusers, healers, demons, angels, and then there's
you... I feel like I'm an outsider, I can't fit into this
generation. This society isn't for me, I can't move
how others move, my mindset is over and beyond. I
can't beat my mindset down into a pulp, like others.
I always call myself unique because I am. I
wouldn't want to be anybody else because they are
already taken.

Times that you felt so sad about yourself, you
should've realized that you are amazing. You
shouldn't care about who comes into your life and
feels as though they are greater than you,
considering a person could look better than you and
have plenty of cool points wherever they go, but
you... you are something different. You are a
different breed, you are the type that whenever
someone meets you, they will always remember
you. Your whole demeanor, your strong mindset,
your vibe, your energy, just everything in general
about you, will forever make them remember who
you are and what you brought to the table.
Your personality makes you the person you are
today. A person can be so pretty, so handsome, so
beautiful, but it's their personality and who they are
inside that makes them the real beautiful or hideous
person.

Some people's looks can only get them so far, but
some people's kind hearts can get them further.
In a life full of estrange people you have to continue
to stand out and stay solid. Always remain true to
yourself and others around. You are supposed to
live your life with a purpose. You are amazing from
the inside out, there's people out here that's hates on
you for being you, and that should tell you that you
are doing something right.

Start setting yourself a little higher than what you
do now. I believe that we all are special in our own
ways, and what makes us, us is what makes us stand
out and different from one another.

Never try to ride someone else's wave, create your
own and ride it till you can't no more. Know that if
you fall always pick yourself back up.