My God

My God 11 )

I sat down at the table with Ignis and a few other warriors.
They all had their beers in hand, shouting and laughing.
Ignis was even smiling and engaging in the conversations.
I felt like an idiot.

Sure i have been seeing Enas every single day for now four months but I just couldn't take it anymore. He was doing so well in the dungeons. A few slip ups here and there but overall he needed someone.
He would've gone mad without a companion.

A small part of me feared him deeply, feared I couldn't trust him in the slightest. A fear that I've carried ever since I realised he was the actual god of magic, a prince to the throne with an incredible hate for his father and a reputation as a killer. It's a daunting realisation but he has changed so much from his stories.

"Thinking about Enas?" Ignis said loudly. I blushed furiously and grabbed the beer out of his hand.
The other warriors laughed loudly in the pub.

"Enas?? Oh hunny you can do waaay better" Tabak said. She was the most fierce female warrior to ever walk on Yaldvir. An icon amongst men and women.

"No it's not like that-'' I start.
Ignis shushes me and snatches the beer from my grasp, pouting at me like a small child.

"I remember this one time, back before Enas went bad, he turned into Salo and tried to fire me as a prank. I nearly lost it. I pleaded with him and just as I was desperate for a reason why he turned back into Enas and told everyone that I cry like a little girl" one member said. He was scruffy looking with a big scar from his hairline to the bottom of his neck.

"You do cry like a little girl!" Another one shouted, causing the table to erupt with drunken laughter, even the scar man (who's name I seriously couldn't remember) was laughing along, joking about cutting off Ignis's plait and wearing it as a wig.

"My brother and this powered warrior are soulmates!" Ignis shouted across the table. The laughter stopped and about six pairs of eyes stared at me.
Shock, anger, fear, pain, worry.

"Ignis! are you serious?!" I slap his arm hard causing him to snicker at my reaction.
He slings an arm over my shoulder and sips his beer before slamming it on the wooden circle table.

"Is that why Salo reduced his prison sentence and put him under realm arrest?" Another person Peilloe a warrior of axes and chains said, he had thick mangled orange hair with plaits in his beard.

"Yes, my brother is so smitten over the Earthling, it's adorable, he even uses his magic to conjure flowers on the odd occasion for her! Quite the spectacle" Ignis slapped my cheek playfully.

Okay that had happened once. Enas figured my three month anniversary of being stuck on 'this god forsaken, unfair realm' would be to use his magic to make me a rose. He put an enchantment on it so it would stay alive as long as I did. I thought it was sweet. Ignis didn't say anything when I walked out of the dungeons with a glowing rose but I guess this is my punishment.

The table was still silent.
"I can't help it.." I started. The lady Tabak started to chuckle, followed by a deep throaty laugh. This caused the others to giggle in response, wonder why Tabak was dying of laughter.

"That's the perfect punishment for Enas! Having a lover who'll hurt him like how he's hurt all of us!" The others cheered suddenly, clicking drinks and going back to being rowdy and drunks.

I shove Ignis's arm off my shoulders and grab my cloak from the back of the chair, flinging it on as I walked outside.

"Carla, Wait" Ignis shouted, stumbling slightly as he came outside.
It was early morning, so not many people were still in the pubs or out on the streets.

"Why would you say that? Enas doesn't deserve that anger!" Ignis rolled his glazed eyes and leant against a pole which was next to us.

"To be fair Carla, he deserves it. He tried to kill Me, my father, innocent people, he tried to fight his way to the throne with his own personal zombie army, he actually killed my mother. My mother!"

"He was her mother too Ignis! So what?! He made a mistake. It was an accident. Don't be such a douchebag!!" I shouted defending Enas.

How dare he? He knew how Malika's death has changed Enas forever.

"Malika's Death didn't change him. He would've mourned and come back to try and rule again"
I looked at Ignis and realised I said that outloud.

"Than what changed him?"

"You" I didn't reply at first. Ignis just stared at me, those flames ever permanent in his eyes.

"No. It's not that kinda thing. One person can't change someone" I argue.

"So my mother's death could change him, that's one person but you can't? Nor a combination of the two?" Ignis said.

I took a step back to realise that when Ignis is drunk, he's really good at being honest and giving advice.

"Look I just.. Enas isn't into me in that way, I just help him to not spiral down the wrong hole." I say stubbornly.

"If you think that than you're an idiot" he said. I frowned at him.

How would he know? Enas tricked me a month ago with that wall push pretend to kiss action and the whole straddle cuddle thing wasn't his fault for getting.. happy.. it happens. It had nothing to do with me.
Besides he is probably just using me because he knows I have a weak spot for him.
It's not romantic.
Not for him.

"It's true Ignis. How would you know? You haven't seen the way he acts with other people, he's flirty, mysterious, cocky" I argue, pointing out times he'd give a side eye to female guards.

"That's his front. That's his guard going up. You think that Enas wants a guard to see him weak? Tell me, when it's a certain time, say for instance when a guard comes along is he suddenly chirper? Wanting to escape? Cocky? Does he use his illusions and other forms of magic?" I stare at Ignis because every word he was saying was true. He was different when there were guards around. He was cocky and didn't show his emotions at all.

"Oh my god.. so what? I'm like.. seeing his more vulnerable side?"

Ignis nodded, his eyes were darting back and forth, obviously from his drunken state.
"I haven't seen my brother this relaxed with a person since Malika" he said holding onto the pole.

I realised in that moment that I was truly the only person who understood Enas. Everyone else just.. despised him, they heard one side and call him a villain.
His intentions may have gone too far and he may of hurt people but I've hurt people, sure as hell Ignis has hurt people. It's what we do.
Maybe he took it too far but being punished forever isn't the solution.

I look up at the stars, my energy swirling through my body as I try to clear my emotions. After four months I had good control over my abilities I just.. get emotional and sometimes lose control.
Like I can only levitate about nine feet off the ground before freaking out and sending a massive electric pulse through the entire arena where I trained daily.

I look back at Ignis and see him struggling to keep his eyes open.
"Come on. I'll take you to your room" I sling his arm around my shoulders and struggle to walk him back to his chambers.

I may be confused as to Enas's true intentions with me but I'm not confused at the fact that I belong here, not on Earh.
I am Ignis's friend and a powerful warrior.

I belong.