My God

My God 10 )

True to my word I came back to his cell everyday, I would sit and talk to him about my training, how I can now manifest objects in my hand, pick up Ignis's axe and fly- which was something I'm still extremely shaky on.
Seriously, the movies make it look so easy. It's really not.

"I don't know why you want to come back to me. We've been through this my dear" my heart skipped when he called me 'my dear'. It was so adorable and it kept me thinking back to two weeks ago when I straddled him.

I haven't had any physical contact since and I miss it.
"Well you're such good company, how can I stay away?" I say joking around but in reality I don't think either of us were joking.

"You know I relapsed the other day" he said. I looked at my hand and remembered how four days ago I came to him with news about Ignis and he snapped, I was in his cell and he used his magic to create a dagger, throwing it at me. It hit my wrist making a cut which my magic healed quickly.
The point was he snapped and hurt me.
Two seconds later he went to hug me and I panicked, walking out of the cell and back to my room.
True to my word I still went back the next day but I haven't gone back in his cell since.

"It's fine. I understand that sometimes you snap. It doesn't mean I hate you"

He laughs against his hand as he wipes his face clean with a cloth.
He was starting to look after himself in the cell.
His smile alone was enough to set things right with me but he wasn't prepared to heal himself completely.

Besides, the guards did nothing to help him he comfortable, they spat next to his cell. I've seen it happen a couple of times after I'd leave or even as I arrived.
They never did it when I was there but I think it's because I'm quite well known around the palace as the Earthling who ate the stone of light.

On the first week of my arrivals I had spoken to Ignis about ridding of his prison sentence. Ignis was very sceptical but saw the passion and need and worry in my eyes.
So basically, another six months in the dungeons than Enas is free to roam, just not free to leave Yaldvir. I thought this to be fair, Enas however still complained. One day it was 'let me rot in here I deserve it' the next it was 'why does that oaf get to make all of my life decisions?' 

Regardless, I had asked Ignis how he got this probation slash freedom and he just shrugged and said 'not telling'.

" I'm annoyed you have to see me so weak" I rolled my eyes and leant against the wall of the dungeon.

"Enas you're not weak. You're hurt. Your father is hurt" he groaned at my wording of father but he didn't respond. I think he knew I was right.

"Ignis can tell you're really grieving the loss of Malika and can see how much you've changed"
I looked at Enas, his green eyes swirled with magic before he closed them and leant back against the cell wall.

"He must think me a wuss" without thinking I came into Enas's cell and slapped him across the cheek.

"You're not a wuss! You're hurt and I'm trying to help you.." his hand was on his cheek but he had a look of happy surprise.

"Feisty. That's what I like to see" he made a magic concoction of himself so that he was in his normal attire, he looked clean and devilish. Beautiful.

"Enas.." I say sternly.

His eyes go darker and he backs me into a wall. I was petrified, I wouldn't say that to him, not whilst I'm trying to help him but I was totally terrified.

"Yes Carla?" He said once I hit the wall, my breath hitched. What was he doing?
I was half expecting him to finally kiss me or stab me.

"What are you doing?" I say. I didn't realise I was whispering until he leant in so he was mere inches off my face.

I kept staring at him, his eyes swirling.
I realised something then that I would always have to deal with.
I snapped out of my daze and walked forward, the illusion of Enas disappeared and the real one was still bruised, dirty and weaker appearing.

"I just wanted to see your reaction"
I blushed a little.

"And?" I say sitting next to him, my fear of him was gone. I don't care if I can't fully trust him. I trust myself.

"You were scared, scared but enthralled. You didn't know what was going to happen and you wanted it to happen. No matter which one because you want me" he said with a smirk.

I squeaked a little to say that he had hit it on the head and he let out a cocky laugh.
"I know how to push your buttons my dear" he said leaning closer to me to brush some hair behind my ear.

"Well I'm learning how to push yours" I say huskily.
His eyes turned hungry, admiring my body for a moment before turning away.

"You have an affect on me Carla." I felt a little stupid that I had spoken to him so sexually.

"Is that bad?"

He hummed
"Maybe so, maybe it's reminding me that I'm more than just a silly god of magic with a bad temper and a murderous track record. Maybe I can be more than my title."

I smiled slightly. Another three months and he'd be out of here. He had already served two months in the time we didn't speak, and he has another week until it's another month so technically he has three months left.

"You can be who ever you want and if there comes a time you wanna take the throne, I won't hesitate to help you. I want to be your queen" I blush at the thought of being his queen.

"I wouldn't have it any other way" he admitted smiling at me.

I stood back up and walked out of his cell.
"I should get going. Just remember, you aren't your title, you aren't your previous choices. You can be more" he stares at me a little longer than I like with an expression of curiosity, disgust and passion.

"Thank you Carla. I appreciate that my dear" I blush again for like the sixth time that day and start to walk out of the dungeons.

As I exit I run into Ignis.
No literally run into him.
I fell back after thwacking into his chest and ended up on the floor.

"What the hell Ignis??" He curses and helps me to my feet.

"Sorry Carla, I just needed your help with something and I figured you'd be with my brother, I just didn't know what you were doing with him"

"Hey!" I blush furiously. Seriously I gotta get my blush radar checked.
"We haven't even kissed thank you very much"

"That's not something I expected.." he admitted. I grimaced at the thought of Ignis being with another woman. I mean sure I've been with other guys so I guess I should get over it...

"I mean I dived straight in after meeting-''

"-wahoohaaa! I get it, I get it!" I place my hands over my ears to motion I was done listening.

Ignis laughed at my reaction and patted me on the back.
The two of us walked through the halls and the entire time I kept thinking about Enas.
But with another girl.

That was infuriating.