let's get lost

the begginning of the end

it's been a solid three weeks since me and Sweet Pea broke up. I am broken. It's not even that I feel broken, I am broken. We don't talk much. Gianna and everyone tries to check up on me I don't let them. I just hate everything. I lost my person. My father left without saying bye because I freaked out on him. FP has tried to talk to me but I won't talk to him. I can't, everything is too hard. I haven't been hanging out with anyone. I also started to become depressed. Just everything that happened made me shift. I don't feel happy. I just want to die.
Not that anyone knows, or cares. I miss Sweet Pea. More than anything. I just want to talk everything out but he started to party more, he hooks up with more girls. Who knows he probably forgot about me. I wish I could make him jealous. But he doesn't even look my direction. In the classes we had together he sits by himself now. And great for me I had school today.
I did what I had to do and then I walked to school. I walk into first period and Reggie walks in after me.
"Hey Tori." He says and I nod. The teacher put on a movie. I put my head down and I just cry. He taps on my shoulder and I look at him and wipe my face. He sighs and grabs my hand and we sneak out of the back of the class. Reggie and I have gotten a lot closer overtime. "What's going on? I know you and Sweet Pea broke up but why can't you guys just get back together?" He asks and I shake my head and wipe my eyes again. "He hooks up with random girls now at the Wynn, yeah it's not like him but he's moved on." I say and he shakes his head. "He probably just misses you. Try talking to him." He suggests and I shake my head and I start sobbing. He pulls me into a hug and I hug Reggie tight.
I see Sweet Pea walk into the bathroom and he looked beat up. I sigh and I pull away from Reggie. "L-Lets just go back to class." I say and he nods. The whole day I was on edge. I've been on edge. Some other northsiders test me. I've gotten in a few fights. Jax has tried to keep in contact with me but I just ignore him. I don't want any contact with him. If would cause a war. As I'm walking home I hear a bike behind me and it was Fangs. "Where is Gianna?" I say and he shrugs. "She didn't feel good so she didn't come to school. Want a ride home?" He asks and I sigh and I get on his bike and we ride home.
"Can I come over? I miss hanging out with you, we all do." Fangs says and I shrug. "I guess." We go inside and it was still a mess. I never cleaned because I didn't have to. I went in my room and we both laid on my bed a equal distance apart. "What is going on with you Victoria?" He asks looking at me and I shrug. "I'm just tired of thinking. I want Sweet Pea back. But he has a different agenda." I say and I look at him. He nods. "He misses you Tori, a lot. I've never seen him this screwed up in a long time." He says and I sigh. "It's just awkward Fangs." I say and he nods. "I understand. Just don't stress it. You got me always remember that okay? You got all of us, even if you feel distant from us." He says and I nod.
"Look there is a dance. You should go." He says and I laugh and shake my head. "Yeah third wheel you and Gianna? I don't think so." I say and he shakes his head. "No, you go with Gianna, I'll go with Sweet Pea. And bam you guys will be together, at least you will be able to talk." He says and I sigh. "If you think that will work then I guess." He gets happy and nods. "Can you come to the Wyrm soon too? We all miss you there." He says and I shrug. "I'll think about it Fangs." I say and he nods. "Look I'm gonna bring Gianna over some food, wanna come?" He asks and I shake my head. "No thanks, but tell her I said hi for me?" I say and he nods. "Don't do anything stupid okay?" He says and I sit up and nod and I hug him. "Thanks for the ride home Fangs." She smiles and nods. "No problem Tori." He says and then leaves.
I love talking to Fangs. He's just a really good talker. He's also a really good guy. I am happy he never died. I go out to the living room and I sit and watch tv. I miss watching tv with Jughead, I just don't know how to ask him again to come over. The last time I did that I kinda freaked my shit. I just miss things how they used to be. Before I messed everything up.
But did I really mess up if I questioned the truth?

Hey guys so it's the first chapter! I hope you guys enjoy! Don't forget to vote and comment please I want to see what you have to say! I also miss Sweet Pea and Victoria they will be back together soon lmao. Love you guys!