Bad Blood - (Fransykes)

Chapter three

A/N: SykopathicHorizon  wanted Keanish to happen so here it is hun :) and there's also sad fluff? lol if that makes any sense... Enjoy my lovelies xx

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Josh's POV

"Did you have another sleepless night, sweetie?" The nurse asked referring to the dark circles which sat snugly under my eyes.

I hung my head shamefully answering her question for her.

It wasn't the first time I woken up in the middle of the night screaming and crying from the nightmares which lay behind my eyelids. Seeing his face in my nightmares wasn't something new but it was always more terrifying than the last.

The medicine the doctor gave me wasn't working, they weren't blocking the images out of my head but they said I just needed time to adapt to them before they started taking proper effect.

Bur I needed them to start working now.

No one will ever understand how much it hurts. The pain of his absence. The hole in my chest which continues to grow deeper, hollow and tender as the weeks go on without him here. Some days were numb and others were just unbearable, just like today.

I lay in this bed day in day out hoping he'll show his face. But every day I wake up disappointed and more fragments of my sorry little heart break off and become unfixable. A broken mess. Just scattered pieces of who I am... of what's left of me. Soon there will be no traces of me or who I was at all. Just a distance memory of a sad lonely boy who lost it all because he fell in love.

Just another pathetic love story for the weak to cry about. That's all I was, another chapter in a book to soon to be forgotten about.

Even though my heart was no longer whole or in place anymore, it still haunts me. Reminding me of the undying love what once laid there.

Despite my reluctance to get out of bed today, the nurse adamantly made me take my medicine and forced me into the wheelchair knowing seeing Sonny will most likely brighten my mood. She wasn't wrong I guess, he always made me feel better but that doesn't mean I couldn't act grumpy until I got to him though.

I caught a glimpse of Jordan stood at the end of the corridor by the vending machines and a slight glimmer of light sparked inside me. His posture came across to me as sad though, as he hung his head low and his shoulders sadly slump making my eyebrows pull together unhappily.

What was wrong?

I mentally told the nurse to hurry up and push me faster so I could find out what was wrong with my dear friend, but of course she continued at her sluggish slow pace.

I thought Jordan was alone until Vegan stepped into my view standing close by his side. The two shared a few words but I was too far away to hear the conversation causing my eyebrows to furrow harder together. I watch closely as Vegan places his hand on Jordan's shoulder and I couldn't ignore the twinge of jealously what unexpectedly appeared in my gut.

He was obviously just comforting him, Horizon were all brothers, family. No reason to get all defensive suddenly. I swallow down the bitter taste in my mouth and try to shift the strange overprotective feeling I was currently experiencing.

I flicker my gaze over to them again and to my dismay, I witness Vegan's hand snake across to the back of Jordan's neck affectionately. My heart beat speeds up rapidly when I see Vegan then guide Jordan towards him and to my complete and utter surprise, places a kiss to the side of Jordan's head.