This Is So Not Happening

Chapter 1

Wanna know something crazy?

Dont bother knowing because in the end,the crazy thing wouldn't even matter.

Because everyday I look at myself in the mirror and I say, I am so not the most unfortunate person in the world. Even if I quote something crazy ever happened to me, something even crazier is happening to somebody else.

Call it cliche cause I would've called it the same way. That was what I am most fond of,predictable romance, mostly teen to top off the whole thing.Well,you get the idea. And dont let me even start on these Netflix teen romance movies, hello! Noah Centineo? Gregg Sulkin? Does that ring any bell?

I am so a hopeless romantic and Im planning to be just that. As boring and pathetic it may sound, I kinda liked the feeling of solo passionate and possibly the feeling of crying alone when I watch sappy sad movies-hundreds of em.

You see, I've got this weird thing, I often exchange movie recommendations with my art colleague,Noelle-especially movies that casts super cute guys and basically that had anything to do with queen bees and highschool life. But I also dig on movies from the 80's and 90's though just that, I have no one to fangirl with about them lol. So I mostly keep all the excitement in my own existance.

Umm I kinda lied about the part about liking the idea of being passionate alone and crying my eye balls out everytime I watch something poetic like titanic.Dont get me wrong.I do have pure affections towards the opposite gender. Its just that I often keep those interest locked inside my own fantasy. Because deep down, I've always knew I was never good enough for anyone. I never thought I was pretty or talented or even good at socializing.I can't even get top notch grades academically.How'd I developed this thing? Well, it was definitely when I got rejected by West in primary school when I said I liked him-I didnt even ask for his approval towards my feelings. Oh I don't know maybe it was that time, when my own bestfriend said that I could never have any chance, Not in a thousand years(yes she said exactly that) to be with Haynes-can you imagine how that had made me feel?! Especially something that came from my own bestfriend!  So I was totally unfit for the world of relationships.Everyone was definitely out of my league!

Well, that was what happened in the years before my final year in highschool.

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Took quite long to climb up the stairs to get to the arts room, I was maybe still getting used to going up such a huge number of stairs! Eventhough I've been doing that for years now. But its a shock how much a month can change your habits. I almost forgot my tutor's name!

Its been a week since the school reopened. Everything was a mess. Everyone was trying to adjust to their new classmates, new timetables, and possibly new boyfriends (cough)

"Jade just broke up with Connor!"Lana exasperated from across the only art table that the five of us are sharing.

"to hook up with Flynn you mean?" Sophie rolled her eyes

I looked over to my side, Noelle was eyeing her laptop, looking angsty as per usual.

"Hey Elle, any new movies?, "I lowered my head, whispering to Noelle.

"nah, I havent been watching anything-apart from vines and dank memes of course"She snorted

"I spent most of the days hanging out with Greg, "she added

"huh, interesting"I tilted back my head to the side, puckering out my lips

Thea started singing out of nowhere.No shocker there too.

"Have you guys listened to the cover I made?,"she chimed

Trust me, I needn't to listen to any of her covers to know that she's really good in singing. The artist blood runs in her veins. Her dad owns a band. I've always thought that was kinda cool.

"girls, are you done with your piece yet? I need to remind you that this component's deadline is on the 17th of August, "Ms. Anna announced from over the door where she was busy assessing a few documents.

"I can't believe it, we are actually graduating this year! "Lana exclaimed

"well, nobody's graduating if they dont pass their subjects, "Sophie sighed

"right, " Heather mumbled under her breath-the first word she said today.

"Leah, where'd you go during the break,? "Thea retorted,looking towards me, anticipating something interesting coming out of my mouth

In which it did.

"I went to a few volunteering work, a few schemes and courses here and there. And of course indulged myself with a few classic movies, this one that I've watched recently, its called 'Never been Kissed'. it had Drew Barrymore...you know, Drew Barrymore, "I explained as excitedly as possible

"nu-uh, I dont know any Drew Barrymore, "Thea said shaking her head.

"oh, Lana, Heather,Noelle,have you guys watched that new anime that came out!?it was really good!! "Sophie exclaimed

"oh my god, you saw it too it was so fun! "

"gee,Hiroshi looked so cute,"

"I heard that there's going to be a sequel"

And here we go again, their excitement and fangirling that I, who happened to be the only person couldn't relate to, were so loud and alien to my ears that it soon became inaudible and all I could hear was this ringing sound

Which happened to be the ring for the lunch break.

Took a few minutes for the five of us to walk to the canteen, the school was sure big enough to make us spent 15 minutes walking between two places.

I happened to get to our usual table first because they were still busy talking about that new anime that came out over the holiday. I settled down my bag and the files I had in my arms and went to que up for the lunch tray. Oh man, I was so glad that the school finally got a new cafeteria to serve us. The last one had coleslaw that smelled like socks, the reminisce of it made me gag in a snap of my fingers.

"Hey there, social pen friend,"

Holy moly, he totally really positively definitely didnt just talk to me.