You're my doll

Baby thoughts

Trixies pov:
I tapped my nails on the table looking through a maternity book. Ive been healing quicker then I though I would, my ankle is all good now and I have a small brace for my knee.

I read through the book and sighed seeing all the 'fun' things that come with being pregnant. Me and Brian have started talking about it more and I've agreed to look into it before making a full on final decision.

"Not looking forward to morning sickness.." I mumbled to myself as I flipped the page. As I read through it more I started to get nervous, at the end of this shit I have to push an actual human out of me.

Yeah doesn't sound pleasant and definitely won't be.

"Brian why can't we adoptttt?" I said from my spot on the couch. He looks up from his work on the computer and raised a brow.

"Well it's something we can do but I do prefer a baby that has both our blood..." i bit my lip and rubbed my face a bit reading through the book more.

"I don't know Bri...this is really a lot that I have to go through for one damn baby..." He swiveled his chair to face me putting his face in his hand.

"But what if there's two damn babies?" I laughed at his stupid joke rolling my eyes.

"Double the pain then. Fuck no. I'm just really nervous about the delivery part...I heard a lot of scary stories about it..." I put the book down and started biting my nails a bit remembering all the stories my moms friends told her about delivering. So gruesome and it could even get worse afterwards.

"Like what? The only scary story about all of that is a face coming out of a vagina" he laughed hard flailing a bit as I threw a pillow at him.

"I'm talking about what if something happens to me in the middle of it! What if I loose too much blood?! What if the pain is too much for me?! Worst of all what if I fuckin pass out and slip into a coma or some shit!!" I sighed in annoyance and sat back thinking of the horrors of it all.

"Aw baby doll...are you really nervous about all of that? I didn't think you were seriousss" he playfully pouted at me while I glared at him with my eyes full of rage.

"Of course I'm fucking serious about all this! I'm really scared about not only me but the baby...would you even care if any of that happened Brian?? Would you even care if I was gone..." my vision blurred with tears as I started to get emotional. I saw Brian come up to me and take my hands holding me close.

"Of course I would care...I would be absolutely devastated without you...I was messing around with you too much and I'm so sorry...I completely understand that your nervous about all this..but I just want you to think about this..when your in there your giving it out all..and by the end of all you'll have a beautiful baby in your arms..you worked for it...and you'll have a bundle of joy after it all.." I sniffed and looked up at him smiling lightly.

"Your right...I was too busy thinking about the cons more then the pros..I'm sure I'll be fine after it all...I needed a quick pep talk...god what would I do without you Brian..." softly kissing me, he held me closer to him before taking the book I had put aside.

"Let's see here...you know the basics and everything I'm sure...but honestly you need to stop reading that and get to reading on how to take care of the child, cause I have no fucking clue how to take care of one myself" we both laughed hard and I shoved his shoulder playfully.

"Oh my fucking god, your lucky I bought a book on that one too!" I grabbed the other book and handed it to him smiling. He took it from me and started reading it with a brow raised.

"Fuck man...wait..they'll wake up in the middle of the night?! Hold the fuck up what!" I laughed hard watching him read it more. He was in complete shock and I couldn't believe he's never heard of this before.

"Hey I have to do all the hard laboring, you have to help when the baby is here and ready to be noisy" he groaned and slid down the couch pouting.

"God damnit...I knew it wasn't gonna be easy during the nine months...but it's gonna keep me up all night too!" I rolled my eyes and got up stretching a bit.

"We both have work to do and by the end of it all, it will always be your ideaaaa!!" I smiled innocently and made my way downstairs with Brian traveling behind me.

"I guess it's fair isn't it...I'm just not looking forward to all the diaper changing and the crying...why can't they stay happy forever??" I giggled listening to him more and went into the kitchen.

"Because there will always be hurtful and sad things in life that will keep up changing our moods, get over it Brian you were a baby too ya know, and right now your acting like one as well" he gasped dramatically and put a hand over his chest while I laughed.

"I may be- ok you know what fine! Touché miss! But I'll remember this the next one that you complain about something!" I raised a brow as I poured myself a glass of whiskey.

"Yeah sure you will, now if you excuse me I'm gonna enjoy my last few months of drinking while I can before my body turns into a hot hair balloon with a child inside it that will cause me to go through a shit ton of pain." I made my way upstairs again leaving Brian to stand there confused.

Three
Two
One.

"Holy fuck does that mean your agreeing to it?!! Oh my god yes!!" I laughed to myself hearing him get all excited downstairs. The only thing i wish for during my time being pregnant is that I want a baby girl. A cute little mini me with some of Brian's characteristics as well, that's all I ask for.

But that might not happen so I'll keep my hopes low for now.