It had been a few days since Marshall and I hooked up at my place. Immediately after, I was on cloud nine. I felt like he had finally acknowledged how I have been feeling for at least ten years. But this feeling of walking on air began to subside when I didn't immediately hear back from him. After one day I didn't think too much of it. After two days, I began to wonder. But I also knew how he got when he started working on something. So I figured he just got busy. However, after three days, no texts, phone calls, letters or emails, I was beginning to feel pretty shitty.
I was at work, on my lunch break. I figured I would take this time to call him. "Hey, Livie." he answered after a few rings." "There you are. I was just about to put out a APB for your ass. Where have you been?" He paused for a minute and I knew he was moving into a place no one could eavesdrop on him. That's when I got a bad feeling in my stomach. "Look, I'm sorry I kinda vanished. I didn't mean to." he said. "That's okay. I'm just happy to hear from you. But what's going on?" He got quiet again. "Marshall? Tell me whatever it is." I said, fully prepared for the worst. "Well, she found out about the other night at the party." Marshall began. "Apparently someone saw us. Anyways, she was pretty upset. I couldn't just dump her right there." I wasn't so sure I was buying his story. "This happened as soon as you got home the other day?" I asked him. "Yeah. But look, I meant what I said to you and I still plan to end it." "Yeah, okay Marshall." I said, it kind of just slipped out. "What? You don't believe me?" he asked. I wasn't sure what I believed. But I knew it had been three days and he's got nothing different to tell me. "I don't know." I started to say. "Look, I care about both of you. I wouldn't tell you I was going to do something and then not do it. I'll just wait a day or two then do it." he explained. "Another couple of days of not hearing from you? Marshall, either you want me or you don't." "Of course I fucking want you. Just be patient. Please Livie?" he asked. He used that smooth voice he liked to use when he wanted to get his way. He knew I had a soft spot for him. "Fine. But you should at least text me and let me know you're okay." "Alright, I will do what I can."
After work that evening, I had to go out of my way home because of a detour. I had stopped at a stoplight and when I looked over at the restaurant to my left I saw Marshall and the girl from the party walking out together. They were arm in arm and having a conversation about something. They looked so happy. Like they were enjoying each other and it was so effortless. I felt the familiar pain in my heart again. Tears began to roll down my face. I heard a horn honk behind me, and realized traffic had already moved in front of me. So I pulled off.
When I got home, I sent Marshall a text. "Hey. Saw you with the girl who you claim to want to dump. You looked so happy. Don't bother. I wont contact you anymore." I threw my phone down in the floor of my car and cried hysterically. What have I gotten myself into?
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I Hate You, I Love You
FanfictionMarshall and Olivia have been friends for a long time. She develops feelings for him and when she finally tells him thins don't go the way she expects. Follow them from 2007 to the present and see what ups and downs their journey takes. WARNINGS: Re...