3,000 Miles

Chapter 16

I wasn't sure if I should go to the concert tonight or not. I kept thinking of Landon's word over and over again

"He's a mess without you"

I then decided that I too, was a wreck without him.

I knew I couldn't take him back, though, he still has the whole world to travel, and how can we say forever if I never see him at all? I decided I owed it to myself to at least go to the concert, but I'd try not to let Wesley see me he Amy get the wrong impression. I'd have to blend into the crowd. I wonder where my seat is. I pull out the ticket and look at the seat number.

Row 1 seat 14 . front row, blending in might be harder than I thought. Thanks Landon.

I took the day off work to go to the concert, so I took extra time to get ready. I slipped on a black lace tank top with my white shorts. I added some black sandals and some jewelry. I pulled my hair up into a messy bun, and did some dark eye makeup. I grabbed my bag and started to drive. The drive seemed to last forever, I had a tight knot conjuring in my stomach, not to mention the endless lines of traffic outside the stadium. I was there early so I had to stand outside in line with everyone while we waited for the arena to open. There were thousands of girls, some of them stunningly gorgeous. The two girls behind me were carrying on a conversation that caught my attention.

"I heard Someone saw Landon with Wesley's girlfriend yesterday! What a little....." I stopped listening. I kept my head down and quietly listened to the other conversations going on around me. The conversations buzzed all around like static. I caught bits and pieces of some conversations. Wesley and I seemed to be the center of the rumors they shared. I laughed to myself, they seem to know everything about our relationship, yet they can't recognize me standing behind them

"I think Wesley is soooooooo cute!" said a girl who looked to be about five years old. she made me smile. This was why he did this, I thought, for little girls like her.

When the arena finally started letting people in it was like a stampede of bulls, everyone pushing and shoving trying to get in first. I slid past the crowd as nonchalantly as I could. I took my ticket and looked around at all the rows, I found my row, and my seat and sat down. There were two girls in my left, but on my right, much to my amusement, was the little girl I had seen outside. I watched her jump up and down in excitement until the concert started.
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When the concert began, Wesley was the first one out. My heart stopped, I hadn't seen him in person since the day he left. He looked bigger now, and his hair was longer. Landon was next, he Immediately search the rows for me. When he found me he smiled and mouthed something to me, I couldn't really see what is was but I think it was 'thank you'. Song after song I kept my eyes glued to Wesley, watching his very move. I watched the way his hair flipped as he drummed. I watched the way he stopped after every song to wipe the sweat from his head. He was even more captivating now, than ever.

During one of the songs Landon tried to get Wesley to look my way.

"She's in the crowd " he sang looking at Wesley

"She's standing right in the front row" he continued looking at Wesley, and pointing to me, but Wesley just gave him a confused look, and kept drumming away.

"She came for you" he sang making extremely obvious gestures in my direction, but still Wesley didn't understand. Everyone was now looking my way trying to see what Landon was pointing at. I shook my head no at Landon. 'please stop' I mouthed. I didn't want Wesley to see me. He nodded back.

I stood there still as everyone around me jumped in rhythm with the music. I soaked in the melodies, and if Wesley could see me, he'd probably make fun of my "music face". The happy rhythm fled out of me when they began to play a song called "only mine" .I knew who it was about, and I didn't want to be there anymore. I covered my face and tried to will myself to stay. I felt a gentle pull on my shirt.

"Are you ok, miss?" I looked down to see the little girl looking up at me with concerned eyes. I nodded yes to her.

"I just need to go get some air." I told her. I grabbed my bag and turned to leave. Landon spotted me and stopped singing.

"Anna, please don't leave." he blurted out. Everyone in the crowd turned their heads trying to search for the cause of the commotion. Now my cover was blown. I walked faster.

Wesley shot up from behind the drums.

"Anna" he whispered, but I could hear it over the speakers. The sound of him saying my name made me want to run faster.

Wesley dropped his drum sticks and ran off the stage after me. I was already at the door. I ran out of it and walked quickly through the lobby. then I heard him behind me.

"Anna, Anna" he called running behind me "slow down, will ya!"

He finally caught up to me and grabbed my arm, whipping me around. I saw the sweat drops on him, they made him glisten, and made his hair hang in long tussles.

"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"Landon invited me. I didn't want you to know I was here." I said looking down.

"Why not? he questioned.

"I needed to see you, but I didn't want you to think....oh I don't know, I can't have you and I didn't want to get your hopes up."

He stepped closer to me, putting his hand on my waist.

"Why, why can't you have me?" He said looking at me with dark eyes.

"There are so many girls after you, and the rumors, and you're always away. I just can't do that."I turned to leave, but he grabbed my arm.

"Please." he said choking back tears, "I watched you walk away once, don't make me do it again." He pleaded.

"I-I'm sorry I came this was a bad idea." I turned and started to walked away.

"Dammit Anna, I love you!" He yelled, knocking over one of the vases in the lobby. I turned to look at him in astonishment. He was squatting on the ground with his head in his hands, he was choking out tears. Landon's words came back to me.

He was a mess. I walked to him and ripped off my necklace. On It was a charm I had got when we first started dating. On It was a quote, a special one, one that belonged to us. I wadded up the necklace and reached for his hand. I put the necklace in his hand and closed it. I kissed his cheek and smiled at him. I loved him, but I still couldn't have him. It took all of my power to turn and leave him there.

But I did it.