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Part 7 - A Coffee with You

I see his camera shot approaches very dangerously as the melted cheddar of his egg muffin. Once he had finished capturing in digital our snacks, we started to taste the real products. Hongbin did not say anything, he simply cut out of his dish and put a mouthful, which I saw his reaction-as a huge smile of pleasure with joy of a child-, that seems to be quite delicious. My slice of black forest is not left out, I must admit, the cream is fine and firm, the chocolate is fresh and tender, a treat. Yet I feel difficult. Not bothered by the mere presence of another person as usual, but embarrassed because I would just like to be able to speak with Hongbin, even if I do not know how. He eats quietly, without saying anything, I think it is because he does not want to rush me or annoy me. But I would like to discuss with him, how to make him understand...

- "And you, what is your favorite song from the last single?"

- "Humm... Good question, I had not thought about it! But I would probably say Sad Ending! And Eternity is in the second. I'm not a fan of songs in the style of Love, Lalala, it reminds me so many couples and it makes me want to throw them water haha."

I was looking at Hongbin with round eyes. He expressed his tastes so easily. In his place, I would have been afraid to say that I do not like a song too much, too scared that the rest of the band will hue me. Hongbin stopped laughing and seemed to notice my troubles.

- "Oh excuse me... Maybe I disappointed you? I know that you are very romantic and that you often write love songs."

Shit, like that's what I was thinking. He's still thinking about me and not hurting me... He will worry because he will believe that he has offended me, for God's sake.

- "No no! It's not that at all!"

I had practically risen from my chair, hand in the air to protest. Hongbin strained his eyes, and seemed surprised at my gesture. You will tell me, I also self-surprised of myself.

- "It's simply..." I mumbled sitting down again, "that I listened attentively what you told me haha... Do not... don't worry." I looked up at him, he was smiling.

- "And you Leo-ssi, what's your favorite song from the last single?"

- "Well... I'd say I don't really have any."

"Really? I'm surprised. You can say that your favorite is Love, Lalala, if that's the case, don't feel compelled by what I said before."

- "Not really, I'm not lying. Of course I like Eternity very much, and even all the others. I really like the theme of Eternity, the fact that one is pressed by the time, that one find ourselves cornered at the foot of the wall, that one would wish till Eternity, because we are greedy, we want to possess and possess even more. In addition I loved that we turn the clip around the art, the portraits were sublime!" I said while smiling. "Sad Ending is very beautiful too, the fact that although it is difficult, one should not stop, continue to start off... Ravi did a great job for the lyrics! And for Love, Lalala, well as you said it is a song of love, but very sensual also, and even if it is true that the lyrics are very pretty and well written, well I must admit that it is not necessarily what I prefer. So I love all the songs but I do not have a favorite! But I must admit that... Why are you looking at me like that?"

- "For nothing, I just like it when you take it like that and you start talking without restraint," he tells me the most naturally in the world.

Holy shit. I paused the moment and analyzed the situation. I had both hands in the air -so I got carried away so much? -and it would even seem that 2 or 3 other people from the surrounding tables had turned around to look at me. Was it because I was talking a little too loudly or because it was not anyone here used to hear someone charging Korean? I didn't know, but I just realised that I didn't even notice it.

- "No problem Leo-ssi, you can go on. I know you love music, it's normal that you speak passionately about what you love haha."

I was smiling. I felt confident with him.

- "Ok . So I said I must admit that..."

More than two hours passed, without being aware of it by myself. We finished our dishes long since, and re-ordered several coffees which emptied cups and piled up in front of us. We had spoken, the common stuff 'of everything and nothing' means, and that was really the case.

Our exchange was from the cat I had when I was a child, to the day where the two sisters of Hongbin had made it up and dressed him as a girl; through a debate about Buddhist texts. Hongbin of course, had not forgotten his primary purpose, and had taken advantage of it copiously to photograph me. He'd been waiting for an hour, when I was starting to relax. Of course, seeing him pointing his camera at me was rather restatued, but Hongbin quickly showed himself so artfully to put his model at ease, he was making the clown, that I quickly found laughter and smile. During this 'photo shoot', I told him several times "but what the hell is the point of photographing me again? It doesn't bother me but it's going to have 45 pictures of the same head!" but Hongbin answered me vividly "No you're wrong ! I didn't see this face for example ! Oh, and wait! That one, too! Don't move!" and continued to photograph me. To look at him, he was so immersed in what he was doing, it was as if every new photograph, every new angle, every small or invisible change, was vital to capture for him.

It had long lasted all the time for our conversation, I was so relaxed that I was even more or less slumped in my chair, rustling my jacket that was behind my back. Hongbin, who was literally crying while laughter, was actively looking for his paper tissue to wipe his tears.

I didn't even feel embarrassed with him, neither his presence nor his conversation had the art of not misunderstanding me, or invading my world. Nor he was similar to me, he was not pretending to understand me better. He was just himself: kind and thoughtful, natural and smiling, and our two personalities exchanged and cohabited in a pleasant harmony.

- "Hahaha! Goodness, Leo-ssi, you're really hilarious, you know? You should tell your jokes more often!"

He had admitted this to me, half natural and half embarrassed; Without forcing me so much behind, just to encourage me to communicate more. Usually this remark would have cooled me well, but coming from him, I knew that it contained no malice. So it was without hostility that I replied:

-"It's very nice to tell me that Hongbin-ssi, maybe later why not."

He did not insist, seeming to understand what I did not say aloud. But he glanced at his watch

- "Damn it already!? Hyung It is over 00:30 pm we absolutely have to go back to the hotel to go to the rehearsal!!"

- "Ok let's go!"

We got up quickly, our jackets are under our arms. Hongbin quickly settled the bill, with a perfect english accent. And we started to run through the streets of Budapest, slipping a little on the cold pavements. I was trying to throw quick glances around me, still enjoying the view of the streets of this city, hoping to be able to return one day, and even return to this cafe. During the first few minutes of racing, we were mostly panicked by the fear of being late, but Hongbin changed the atmosphere very quickly with his humour :

- "You know what? The advantage is that when we'll be arrived, we will not even need to warm up for the training: we will be ready to go!"

- "HAHAHA! You're too funny Hongbin-ssi!"

- "I would even suggest that we could go and tease the distributors of the concert hall, and eat some more snacks while the others warm up! What do you say ?"

- "I say I totally agree haha!"

We continued to run, laughing like kids. I felt good. I had a nice time, I felt good at his side, and running so, seemed to inflate my chest with confidence.

- "In any case, you know what, Leo-ssi?" Said Hongbin turning to me.

- "No, what?"

- "I'm glad that I shared this moment with you."

- "... Me too, Hongbin-ssi, me too."

And even if he did not answer back, I could see it at the corner of his mouth, that he smiled as much as I smiled.