Shawn Mendes Imagines

Back To You (song imagine 6)

Hi guys! This is going to be the first imagine in my album series. The song is by Selena Gomez, and I would strongly recommend listening to the song while reading the imagine if possible. :)
Lyric imagine is based on: I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to/ when I'm lying close to someone else
Y/N's Point Of View:
I roll over in the unfamiliar bed. Staring out the window overlooking the Toronto skyline, I sigh. I feel a pair of arms around my waist, and a head in the crook of my neck.

"What's up, babe?"

"Oh, it's nothing," I say, hoping he'll drop it.

"If you say so," he murmurs, snuggling deeper into my neck.

Shawn and I split about 3 months ago. He was the one to end it, he told me he'd been cheating for about a week. My heart was absolutely broken, but after I'd healed about a week or two later, I wanted to feel his lingering touch on my skin, to feel his welcoming lips on mine. But he'd moved on, and I guess I'm supposed to as well. So I'm laying here, wishing it were Shawn's arms around my waist instead of Harry's. Don't get me wrong; Harry is super sweet and cute, but my heart hasn't gotten over Shawn.

"You're tense," he chuckles. "It's hard to snuggle when your collar bone is protruding into my neck."

I smile, and giggle a little bit.

"Sorry."

We turn our heads and kiss, but his lips don't have the same feeling as Shawn's. Shawn's were softer, more welcoming, warmer. I imagine his warm lips, and it takes me a minute to realize that Harry is struggling for air. I pull away quickly.

"Are you okay? I'm sorry," I ask, looking at his features.

"I'm fine," he chuckles, leaning in for another kiss.

I decline, however, and run to the bathroom. Harry follows and enters behind me before I can close the door.

"Hey, hey, what's the matter?" he asks, tucking hair behind my ear.

He hugs me, an pulls me closer to his chest. I relax at the strength of the hug, but I keep having to imagine Shawn's arms. I can't do this to Harry. I pull away.

"Harry, I need to leave."

With those words, I run out of the room and out of his apartment, hopping into the elevator.

"I need to stop. He's got a girlfriend, Harry's expecting love, I can't keep loving Shawn."

The doors open and I run out of the complex, out to my car I'd parked earlier, with intentions of grabbing it tomorrow morning.

"He broke my heart, why do I still love him?"

I drive where my head takes me, and 15 minutes later I find myself in front of Shawn's condo.

"He's going to kill me."

I run up to the front door, and ring the doorbell. Who knows what he could be doing at 2:00 in the morning? I can't just walk in his house, even if I know where the spare key is.

"Who the h*ll is here at 2:00 in the-" Shawn begins to ask irritated, before he realizes it's me.

"Uh, Y/N? What are you doing here?"

"Um, can we talk?" I ask nervously.

I take in his features. He appears to be dressed in fancy clothing, but it's wrinkled and appears to have been put on messily. His hair is fluffy and sweaty, his lips are swollen, and- holy crap I interrupted something didn't I?

"Babe, who's at the door?" a girl's voice asks from a few feet behind Shawn.

My cheeks turn hot.

"A friend, I'll be up in a minute, darling. This will only take a second. We're just saying goodbye now," Shawn replies, turning around so that he's facing the darkness of his house.

"Wait, Shawn-" I begin to protest.

He sighs heavily.

"Look, Y/N, we broke up 3 months ago. You need to move on, because I have. Why are you even talking to me after what I did to you?"

"I know that, but I don't know what it is about you. I miss you. I miss your touch, your kiss, your smile. You broke my heart but still manage to have it beat for you just the same."

"I can't help you with that. Y/N, I've moved on, and you should too. Goodnight," he says before closing the door.

I turn around so I'm facing the street.

"Why do I still love him? He's f*****g having s*x with his new girlfriend upstairs and I still freaking love him! What the h*ll is wrong with me? After everything that's happened, I still manage to go back to him."
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Hi lovelies! I hope you enjoyed the first album chapter! There are more that are coming, and I'm always up for requests!
XO,
Mackenzie