The Winchesters

Chapter fourteen- Father

Recap'
We were trying to figure out what to do next as we started heading for the bunker. As soon as we arrived i went inside searching for answers on the books around the bunker. "Hey,don't you think you should take it easy there? You might have a concussion"  said Dean as he approached me at the table where i was going through the books frantically. "I don't have time to wait around and see what happens next. The shadows are already here and they're roaming around the city this very moment. I can't sit around and do nothing. Not since it's my fault they're here in the first place" i said as i felt a sharp pain in my head. "We're gonna get through this okay? We'll do this together" Sam said as he stood by Dean's side. Knowing i have my family around me to help me get through this eased my pain and the stress i was feeling. That was until I heard someone talk behind Dean and Sam. "Hey my little girl" said the tall figure that now stood before me. "Dad?" i said with eyes wide open.

Bella's pov'

I wasn't sure if i was dreaming because it certainly felt that way. "Are you really here?" I asked as i looked at him. At this point Sam and Dean were looking at me as if I'm not a mentally stable person so i knew something was off. "Who are you talking to?" Sam asked looking at the direction i was looking at and so did Dean. "What do you mean? You don't see him? He's right there" i said pointing at my dad. "Okay,that's enough for tonight,come with me" Dean said as he approached me and started pushing me towards my room. "I'll keep you company darling" my dad said as he came behind us. "Tell me I'm not going crazy Dean. You really don't see him?" I asked again trying reassure myself that I'm not going out of my mind.
"You must have experienced a really bad concussion since you're seeing things now" Dean said as we got inside my room. I'm hallucinating now? But it felt so real and i could still see him.

I got in bed and wanted to drift off to sleep after Dean left the room,but i couldn't sleep over the thumbing in my head that felt like it was going to explode. "You wouldn't be in such a bad shape if you just knew when to quit" my dad said from the corner of the room. "Quit what?" I asked confused. "Putting others lives first before your own" he said. I sat in my bed since I couldn't sleep i might as well talk to him. "I've spent most of my life thinking that I don't belong here because i felt different. Putting others first instead of myself helped me feel like a better person. Knowing what i know now  I was never the good person was i? I'm the bad guy now,am I not?" I asked him. "Is this one of those moments where you want me to lie to protect your delicate emotions? You're the bad guy" he answered to my surprise. "I thought you were supposed to be supportive" i said narrowing my eyebrows. "If you think that's why I'm here you got another thing coming" he said with a small chuckle and then continued "You brought this on yourself,ever since you were six months old you've been nothing but a monster". "I never wanted this. I thought i wanted this life after I started hunting and everything,at this point I'm not so sure anymore. I want to eat melting ice cream on a hot summer day. I want to complain how stressful studying is. I want to go  with my dad for a long drive to the furthest market because we enjoy our conversations. I want anything but this. How i brought myself into this situation is a blank to me. The decisions that i made, the ones I didn't get to make,they are haunting me now..". "Stop feeling so sorry for yourself" he interrupted. "You're gonna screw this up just like you screwed up our first meeting. Yeah,remember that?" He asked as he walked around the room. "Are you dead?" I asked at this point.

"Haunting you as a ghost would be the last thing on my mind. You're going crazy don't you get it? You're never gonna win at this game. I'm here to make sure of that" he said. "You're always going to be the girl who killed everyone. Who ruined everyone's life. Who ruined the world" he continued. "Stop,just stop please" i said holding my head in my hands and screaming at him. "You'll never save everyone,nobody loves you. Not even Dean,he just feels sorry for your pathetic ass" he said at this point standing right in front of me. "No,you're lying,get out of my head please" i said tears rolling down my face. "Hey,hey,hey calm down I'm here" Dean said wrapping me in his arms as Sam entered the room. I looked up at him frantically. "He will never leave me alone, I can't..I can't..make it stop" i said as my voice broke and more tears rolled down my cheeks.

I don't know how i drifted to sleep after that but i woke up thirty minutes later and it was six in the morning since I didn't get to sleep almost all night. Dean was laying next to me asleep. I got up trying not to wake him and went to the kitchen to get some coffee. "Goodmorning sunshine" i heard the voice I've been trying to shut down ever since it appeared. I turned around and saw the face I once thought of as my biological father who I wanted to get to know at some point. But now he's another face I try to wipe out of my mind.

"Don't bother ignoring me. I'm pretty sure you know by now you can't shut me down" he said with his arms crossed. "Silly girl can't you see the truth? This is my little kingdom now. And you're not the queen anymore" he said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes as I sipped my coffee and headed for the books. I sat on the table and started going through the biggest books in the bunker to find answers. "Goodmorning,how are you feeling?" asked Sam as he sat down with a cup of coffee on his hand. "Been better" I answered truthfully. "Is he still there?" He asked and i nodded in response. "What is he saying?" Sam asked. "Oh,the usual. How I'm an abomination and I'll never save the world" I answered and as soon as i said that my phone rang. I saw the numbers 666 on my screen and i knew immediately who it was. "Crowley" i said with an angry tone as soon as I answered the phone. "Don't be so bitter now sweetheart. I'm calling for a peace offer" he said over the phone. "Not interested" i said and was about to hang up when he said "Wait! I know you're not my biggest fan right now but at this point you're going to have to bare with me. Having the Shadows roaming my kingdom is not working out in my favor anymore. We should meet up,discuss our next move" he said and with that he hung up. "What did he say?" asked Sam. "I don't even know anymore" I said feeling confused.

Thankyou for reading. I'm not sure how long I'll continue this book but it will end soon. Vote and comment if you liked it.