Worst of You | Choni

chapter 23

Toni walked into her brothers hospital room, praying for today to be the day he wakes up. A couple days go by and for the past couple of days Toni has stayed overnight. Every morning, Toni would wake up around 4am so that she could leave her brother to go get ready for school. She would attend school, not caring about being late to any of her classes, and avoided Cheryl as much as possible now that she was ignoring her. Cheryl had been keeping her distance and all Toni wanted to do was be able to not feel anything for the redhead. Toni always couldn't wait til the end of the day to go to her brothers and tell him about her day.

Toni walked in with her bookbag over her right shoulder. She looked to her brother and smiled.

"Hey, Ash." Toni greeted as she closed the door behind her and went to sit in the seat beside her brothers hospital bed.

Toni dropped her bookbag beside her and immediately grabbed her brothers hand that was closest in reach.

"I don't know if I can do this anymore." Toni began.

She looked straight at her brothers face and sighed when she still noticed his eyes closed.

"I wish you'd just wake up. I can't be the only one to survive this shitty life we have." Toni held her brothers hand tighter and looked down to their hands. "I love you so much, Asher."

It was silent for a moment before Toni decided to speak up again.

"Today, Cheryl continued to avoid me. Even though we were partnered up for a group discussion question in class, she still managed to give me little human contact." Toni chuckled as she remembered. "I don't know why I care so much. I shouldn't care. I'm Toni fucking Topaz, I'm the baddest Serpent and the baddest bitch in the Northside and Southside. I have the most badass reputation but here I am, caring about a girl that was just supposed to be a one night hookup." Toni shook her head with a small smile as she remembered the day she first laid her eyes on Cheryl. "Cheryl hates me... And I understand that because I've been nothing but an asshole to her.. But I can't help it when I have these strong feelings for her, and for once in my life, avoids me. I don't know why I can't just keep it moving. I mean I've had multiple hookups for the past week since we've had our last encounter in the hall, but even though I'm here sleeping around and enjoying it for the moment but the minute I see the ginger, my thoughts are flooded with her." Toni sighs and bites her lip softly to stop herself from getting to emotional. "I don't know why I can't just find love and keep it. I found this amazing girl, and here I am, fucking it up as always. I mean I don't know if I really love Cheryl, I don't really know what love feels like. The only love I know is you.." She cleared her throat as she felt her voice beginning to crack towards the end. "You were supposed to be here right now to tell me to chase this girl. You always supported me no matter what, you've always wanted me to find a perfect girl for me. You would've loved to see me with Cheryl. You would've bugged me about it so much. You're supposed to be with me to figure this life thing out. For the past month you've been here, probably silently judging me." Toni said as she laughed a bit, looking up to her brother.

Toni quickly stayed silent for a couple of minutes before sighing loudly and clearing her throat once more. She squeezed her brothers hand and stood up from her chair.

"I wish it had been me instead of you. I could never forgive myself if you died. I could never be able to live if you died. You're my everything, Asher. You're my soulmate. You're the only man in the world I love and will continue to love." Toni began as she started to let her emotions finally go, causing her to shed a couple tears. "You promised me, Asher. You promised me that you'd never leave me. Don't fucking leave me, Ash. I can't fucking live without you." Toni said in a raspy voice as she started to sob to herself.

Toni let go of her brothers warm hand and stepped over to the side to sob silently away from her brother, as if he could see.

"MY LIFE IS A LIVING HELL!" Toni screamed as she continued her sobs in the corner of the hospital room.

The door immediately opened and the nurses came in.

"Are you okay, honey?" The nurse politely said to Toni.

Toni continued to cry, grabbing fists of her hair out of frustration and shook her head no, reassuring the nurse that she was having a breakdown. The nurse immediately looked to Toni and pulled her into a hug, making Toni let go of her hair.

"It's okay, sweetie." The beautiful nurse reassured Toni as she began to stroke the pink hair that was behind held against her shoulder.

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Cheryl sat in front of her mirror, looking at herself and sighed as she was feeling insecure. She heard a knock on her door and looked over.

"Hey, your mom let me in."

"It's fine, V." Cheryl said as she looked at her.

"You okay? I feel like you haven't been yourself lately." Veronica told as she walked over to Cheryl.

Veronica stood behind Cheryl and the two looked at eachother through the mirror.

"I'm just.." Cheryl started. "Why doesn't Toni want me?"

Cheryl couldn't stand to see the girl she loved everyday at school and then face the fact that Toni didn't want to be with her. She avoided Toni to keep away from getting her own feelings hurt, and doing just that just hurt her more.

Veronica nodded at the girl for a moment understanding that she was feeling insecure and then reached over to her glasses and took them off for her.

"What do you say we give you a complete makeover?" Veronica smiled at Cheryl as she looked through the mirror.

Cheryl nodded and Veronica took that as a yes and turned her around, examining her features to see what she could do with the redheaded girl in front of her.

"I'm gonna make you look so hot. You'll not only have Toni running back, but everyone at Riverdale High running towards you begging for a chance." Veronica squealed excitedly.
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Sorry I took forever to update, I've been going through a lot. But hope you guys enjoy this chapter. Also Toni's breakdown.... so heartbreaking ugh. And who's excited for Cheryl's makeover? HBIC Cheryl coming to town! COMMENT AND LIKE FOR MORE UPDATES!!