Shattered Mirrors (Depressed Karamatsu x reader)

Chapter 15: Totoko's Explanation

"Do you remember when we were kids?" She asked and I nodded "heh..we would do everything together and would always be around the boys...yet when we were on our own, I felt like that allowed me to be myself and act different from how I did around the boys." She says

"Yeah, I remember. You would be more open and relaxed."

She nods "That's right. We were so close that one time someone asked if we were sisters." Her and I laugh at the memory "yeah, I remember that too. Totoko where are you going with this?" I ask and she pauses.

"Well...Do you remember what happened in high school? Guys crushing on us? Us becoming distant?" She asks and I shake my head. "I mean I remember guys crushing on you but not us becoming distant." I say leaning forward slightly.

She leaned back into the couch and wrung her hands.

"I do."
-Flashback-
-Totoko's POV-

"Yo. Totoko. I think that guy has a crush on you." My friend y/n says pointing to a guy I liked. I smiled sadly "oh really?" I ask and she nods. "You should go talk to him!" She exclaimed and shrug "maybe later." I say going back to reading.

Later meant never for this case or any other case when it came to guys. Why? Because all the guys I would gain crushes on..would fall head over heels in love with y/n instead. Even in the Matsuno brothers, Karamatsu was in love with her. And that guy she just pointed out, was actually crushing on her.

However, I never told y/n that that was the reason I didn't go after my crushes. I would always say other excuses like 'I don't like him.' or 'he isn't my type.' It helped that I never actually told her when I had a crush. I was also never mad at her for "taking" my crushes, she was just oblivious that they even liked her. As a result, she'd always put them in the friend-zone.

I would try to pursue them after she did that but a small part of me would tell me. They just want to date you as a second choice.

Lately, I've been worried about our friendship because y/n was starting to become closer friends with the Matsuno brothers. I was worried that I would lose her as a friend and I didn't know why. She was in more classes with them and shared a club or two with them. Classes that I didn't have the same time with or clubs I had no interest in.

Unfortunately, because of this we grew distant from each other. We didn't completely separate from each other thanks to the Matsuno brothers which was good. Though when the sophomore dance came I was worried again. Y/n was of course asked out by my crush, while the brothers bugged me. In the end we all just went as a group.

But surprisingly I was asked out by a guy that I liked. I was quick to except and he joined our group and we went to the dance. I would smile whenever Karamatsu and y/n were alone because neither one was brave enough to ask each for a solo dance. That is until it was announced that a slow dance was going happen.

I urged both them onto the dance floor to dance. Y/n looked embarrassed and surprised, whereas Karamatsu was surprised but looked grateful. I took my date to the dance floor and we started to talk as we moved. Everything was fine until I asked

"Why did you decide to ask my out?"

A simple question with a heartbreaking answer. His answer was

"Oh? I just felt bad that no one asked you. So I thought I'd ask and give you someone to go with."

I can't even describe my heartbreak. I pulled away from him and walked off. Which didn't go unnoticed by y/n. She followed me as I left the building.

"Totoko! Wait! What happened?!" She yelled and I stop walking. I whipped around to face her unable to stop my tears. She saw them and moved to wipe them away, but I slapped her hand away. "I'm fine..He just made me upset..I want to go home, but you should have fun...I'll see you at school Monday." I say before turning away to walk home. As I walk I think to myself

He only dated me...because he pitied me..of course.
-Flashback over-
-your POV-

"After that I stopped talking to you..causing us to grow distant..or at least until the end of the year..As you can see I had reasons to be a little doubtful. At first..I thought no way because Karamatsu loved you for so long that I truly didn't believe that it finally happened...and the reason I said it was out of pity...was my own past getting in the way and for that reason, Karamatsu, I'm really truly sorry." She says starting to cry

"I am really happy for you guys. Honestly."

I smile when Karamatsu leaned over and hugged her, she clearly deserved it, before pulling back to say. "I forgive. Thank you."

I got up and walked around him to Totoko and hugged her as well. "Yes, thank you." She gave a small smile and wiped her tears. "Thanks for listening. That felt good to say." Both Karamatsu and I let out a light laugh before saying

"It's no problem at all."