Karamatsu's POV
"good. I'll be home before you know it." y/n says before leaving. I let out a sigh "the house is so lonely without you. I wish you didn't have to leave." I say before walking over to the couch and sitting down. Luna walked over and I picked her up, setting her on my lap. "Who's a good girl." I say scratching her head "hm. You've probably got like one month left before you have your puppies huh?" I ask and she licks my face "heh. I'll take that as a yes."
I spent a lot of time playing with Luna and watching tv to past the time before y/n would come back. Two hours into her being gone the doorbell ran so I got up to get it, leaving Luna to rest on the couch. When I opened the door I was surprised to Totoko. She seemed just as surprised.
"Oh so it's true." She says and I quirk an eyebrow "what?" I ask "oh I just heard from Chibita that his sister was dating you. I didn't believe him then I heard it from one of your brothers and I thought no way. Then I saw you and her together and I thought nothing of it since you guys are friends. But now that I see you here I see it is true." She says and I blush
"Well, yeah we've been together for two weeks." She looked in shock "two weeks?! And you're already moved in?!" She exclaimed and I rub my arm "well..she let me stay with her after the incident." I say and she tilts her head "oh? What happened to her?" She asks
That hurts. I thought "nothing. The incident involved me..not her." I say and Totoko laughs "oh I see. Heh, she's doing this out of pity." She says and I looked at her confused "what?" She rolled her eyes "whatever happened to you she feels bad about. She pities you and as result she took you into her care and even started dating you out of pity." She says and I avert my eyes from hers
"No..she really loves me." I say and she laughs "well of course you feel that way. That's how she wants you to feel. She wouldn't date someone like you when she could get any guy she wanted." I look down tears brimming "though I guess it makes sense that you think she loves you. She spends a lot more time with you than any other girl, but believe me once you're better, she's going to break this off." She says and that did it. My heart was aching at the thought.
"So what is wrong with you? You seem healthy." Totoko asks "yeah..I am healthy physically...but not mentally." I say before slamming the door on her. My mind was a whirlwind of negativity and my heart was aching. All I wanted...was relief myself of pain.
So I made my way to the bathroom with Luna and Zuko following. Both dogs were scratching at my heels and trying to pull me back but ultimately failed. "Leave me alone." I say to them before closing the door to the bathroom. I turned the shower on and removed my top. I didn't even bother changing the water temp from it's ice cold temp.
Maybe if I don't bleed to death, I'll freeze instead I think before taking the blade out of y/n's razor
Y/n..was this all really just out of pity..heh..I'm sorry I was a waste of your space and time.
"sorry you had to be around me. I'm a waste of space." Was the last thing I said before letting the blade glide across my wrist.
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Shattered Mirrors (Depressed Karamatsu x reader)
FanficI don't want to give anything away. So I'll just give a warning. This includes mild swearing.
