The Runaway 2 - N.H.

[30] I'm okay

"What? Did you all think I was a slut?" I ask annoyed. Do they think that low of me?

"No! Of course not it's just um... surprising?" Niall says almost in the form of a question.

"Well it shouldn't be." I say quietly. Fuck this is awkward.

"Wait, really?" Luke asks and he honestly looks astounding.

A put my head in my hands. "Yes, okay? I haven't had sex in a year, I get it; it's embarrassing."

"No, it is not embarrassing. It's..." Louis trails off obviously looking for a word he won't find. It's embarrassing.

"I just have massive fucking trust issues. Who wouldn't like fucking the whole foundation of losing my virginity is a fucking lie and my last fucking boyfriend cheated on me and fucking slapped me, one of my best friends blackmailed me and made me feel like shit and my own fucking brother ignored me for four years like how am I supposed to trust another guy after that fucking shit goes down?" I take a few deep breaths once I'm finished raging and they all stay staring at me. "Sorry." I mumble.

"Don't be sorry. They deserve it." Anna growls and Michael shoots her a warning glare and she gives him the finger. Ashton gives her a small smile.

"That must be a record for saying fucking, honestly that's incredible." Luke says quietly without looking at me.

"Thank you." I smile like the smart ass I am.

"Anyway, I just..." Michael starts and looks over to Calum and Cal nods for him to proceed. "I wanted to apologise for my actions. Clearly what I did was so wrong. Braeden I never, ever wanted this. You deserve so much more and I-"

"Quick question, was this scripted or did you two just fucking memorise it together?" I ask Calum and Michael.

"What?" They ask in unison.

"Well that obviously didn't 'come from the heart' and you didn't fucking mean it so you must have memorised it, right? Just cut the crap, you couldn't have cared less if I woke up or not. Either of you." I growl. I know they both care but I am so, so angry and I need to let it out.

"Braeden, that is not true. Of course I care I know I said terrible, terrible things but I-" Michael begins I speech but I honestly don't care.

"Ashton?" I ask and he looks over to me confused. "Anna-Lee told me you took her on a date, what does that mean now?"

"Anna-Lee?" He asks obviously trying to avoid my question. I steal a glance at Mikey and he's staring at his hands in his lap, maybe crying but I can never really tell with him.

"That's her real name. Now answer my question twat." He giggles a little, obviously uncomfortable.

"Bee, come on." Anna tries to scold me but she's giggling like a little school girl.

"Oh fuck." I whine and grip my knee. I sudden pain tushes through it without me even needing to move.

"Bee!" Anna yells and rushes over to me, all the happiness drained from her face.

"I'm okay, I'm okay."

"Get a doctor!" She yells to someone and Niall and Calum run out the door. Louis is now right beside Anna and looking extremely distressed.

Michael stays in his seat, staring at me wide eyed and Luke has now stood from his seat right beside me and looks like he's about to burst into tears.

"I'm okay, seriously it ju- Ow!" I whine again. It feels like someone is stabbing me in the knee and fuck it hurts.

"Miss Tomlinson?" The doctor asks and Anna moves so he can get to me. "What's happened?"

"I don't know it just started hurting, I didn't even move it." I say and grip my knee, even though it doesn't relieve the pain at all.

"It's okay, I'll get you some pain medication and we can do some tests, I'll be back." He walks out if the room and my eyes go back to where Michael was sitting but he's no longer there.