The Runaway 2 - N.H.

[31] I saw it

{This chapter is really short, sorry :(}

The doctor is doing tests on my knee now and I told the others they couldn't stay but I know they can.

I honestly just need time to breathe, today has been so scary and stressful.

"Bee?" I hear a voice and look over at the door to see Calum, Niall and Louis.

"Come in, we are done now." The doctor says to the boys. "I'll get the results back to you soon." He says and leaves.

"Bee, I think we should talk." Calum says quietly and takes a seat beside my bed. Louis and Niall follow and sit patiently waiting for Calum to talk. "I just... I think that we should make amends and I don't know... Like stop fight-"

"What did you say? Because I think you said we should stop fighting and make amends and that is fucking bullshit, Calum. I still don't understand how you could have cheated on me, how could I forgive you?" I can't believe he wants to 'make amends'.

"What do you mean?" he leans forward slightly and put his elbows on the bed.

"I still can't understand how you could have kissed someone else. I've been thinking about it for the last year and I still can't come to terms with it." I think about it every single fucking day.

"It was a mistake, Braeden."

"Don't you fucking say that. How dare you. Cheating is not a mistake, Calum. If you truly loved me how could you have kissed her without feeling my heart fucking shatter to pieces? How did you not taste my tears on your lips? It was a choice you made because you obviously never gave a single fuck about our relationship." I've been waiting a whole damn year to say that and it wasn't nearly as satisfying as I'd hoped.

He can't even look me in the eye. He stays staring at his lap. "I... I'm so fucking sorry Braeden, I've regretted that night every single day of the last year and I-"

"How many girls did you sleep with?" I hope he doesn't answer, I know I won't be able to handle the truth.

"Four." He says without missing a beat, like he was planning I'd ask.

I clench my jaw and grip the sheets on this fucking hospital bed. "Was it my fault? That you cheated? D-Did I do something?" A tear slips down my cheek and I quickly wipe it. "Stop being so weak." I mumble to myself and Calum snaps his head up.

"No of course it wasn't your fault, Braeden and you are not weak. I fucked up, Bee. It was my fault I didn't see how much I really needed you. It was all my fault, you did nothing."

"Then was I not good enough? Just please tell me what I did wrong because it's been a year and I still can't piece it together." He starts crying and he rubs his eyes before looking back at me.

"You didn't do anything, Bee. I just... I just kissed her I didn't even think I didn't know what I was doing but you never, ever did anything wrong." I can hear the pain in his voice and it honestly breaks my heart.

"Fuck, why should I believe that? Cheating isn't an accident, it's not a mistake, Calum. It's something that you did. What... do you expect me to think? You obviously didn't love me like-" The tears are coming freely down my cheeks but I honestly don't care right now.

"No, Braeden. I fucking loved you with all my heart and I... I saw the acceptance letter, Bee. For BU. I was scared I was holding you back... that's why I left that night and started to drink. I was looking for you t-to tell you I wanted you to go and then..."

"Y-You knew?" I ask my voice cracking.

"I-I was at your house like a week before and I saw it in the draw beside your bed and I just... I freaked and I was excited but I knew you wouldn't go... So I was going to tell you that... that I'd go with you."