The Less Popular Porter

Happy.

"Wait...."
"I know this is insane and i just told you I wanted to figure everything out but. I just. I want to date you. I want to be able to call you my boyfriend"
"But Avery?"
"I know. We would probably have to keep it a secret for a LONGGG time like. A long time because Austin finding out could be awful but I don't know Zion we could make this work" then i realized "I mean if you still wanted to even"
"No no nooo I want to Avery but. I just? What about Austin"
"We won't tell him. We won't tell anyone for that matter. I'm in "love" with you...whatever that means"
"Avery we just met like a week, not even ago. Are we rushing things?"
"I don't know Z" I laid my head back down on his lap and looked up at the stars. The way Zion is just. You crave his presence, he makes you want to tell him everything about your life and what's hurting you. He doesn't judge you for your weird quirks and finds them cute, if anything. He makes you feel like your really not weird even if you think these things you do are.
       The stars were very out, they made it almost bright out. I looked up to him, he was starring in front of him. If only I could read his mind
      "Don't you want some time" He asked noticing that I was looking at him
     "Time for what, to realize how alone I really am?"
      "Your not alone"
      "But Zi I am, I am alone." I felt my voice crack. Finally voicing your feelings to someone makes it so much more real than if you just keep it bundled up inside.
      "It's okay" he put his hand in my hair sort of playing with it
      "The one person who I waited for for so long. So so long Zi so long" I sat up and stared deep into his eye "there is so much of me wanting to just run and jump off this roof right now and hope to god that I don't make it" my eyes flooded with tears and he ripped me into a hug. The blanket he had around himself swarmed me and I couldn't see anything. I have a flat roof which is probably the reason we're not tumbling down right now. I had gotten pulled into his lap, and curled myself into a ball which he was cradling me. I felt so warm, so comforted. I can't explain it but this is the safest I've felt in years. Tears were streaming down my face and I think I heard Zion sniff once or twice but it could've been from the cold or allergies. My head laid on his chest and I could hear his steady heart beat. I kept my eyes closed and listened to it, very closely. How thankful I was for him to be here with me. He sort of started rocking back and fourth and humming. I couldn't tell what song it was but I soothed me. Made me feel like we were the only people in the world. It was almost as if Zion was babying me, like i was a child. But it was all I wanted. He was holding me tight and I could hear the wind from the trees. But I was so buried into Zions arms and blankets that I wasn't even able to feel it....
"Avery wake up" I heard quietly. I opened my eyes. I didn't even know I fell asleep.
I pulled my head away from Zions chest and looked at him. He kissed my cheek and made me blush. "We don't have to just be friends" I got up and sat next to him on the blanket.
"What?" I smiled
"I had a lot of time to think, and Avery I want to be with you"
"Really!" I said probably more excited and more loud than I should've
"I mean we would have to do a LOT of lying, especially until this whole "Luke" thing blows over but....I want to date you Avery"
"I want to date you too" i smiled and had began holding his hand and playing with the bracelets on his wrist
"Soooo..."
"Does that make us....?"
"Boyfriend and girlfriend?"
"We sound 12" I laughed looking at him
"We do..."
We sat there for the next 20 minutes. Just talking and looking at the stars "okay, I should get to bed"
We cleaned up everything and got down. We had Been out there for like 3 hours! We stood in the hallway. The boys were all sleeping in Austin's room and mine was right across from it.
"Goodnight" he smiled at me as we both went to the doors
"Goodnight" I smiled back and went and laid down. I still didn't get much sleep at all, but at least I was happy.