The Less Popular Porter

Stop it

We sat there in silence "what do you mean" he asked obviously hurt from what I told him
"I can't keep hurting you is what I mean" he didn't answer me
"God damn" was all he said after silence for 5 minutes
"Zi-"
"If you want to stop hurting me why don't we just break up ya know?" He said obviously crying "you don't care enough to take the time to work this out why should I? Right? I mean why should I even put effort into this relationship like you're going to start. God damn Im so in love with you. What an idiot I was to think you would wanna be with someone that actually isn't trying to hurt you and just trying to help you. But you just push and push and keep pushing me away. It's my fault really for thinking we'd last"
"Zion I don't mea-"
"Avery I get exactly what you mean. Okay. you're trying to be 'the bigger person here' and say it's me not you type of shit here and I'm sick and tired of caring for people who end up never giving a crap about me. So I'm done."
"Zion please don't" he stood up
"Please don't what? Tell you the truth" he was at the ladder about to climb down
"Please don't leave me here"
"Why shouldn't I isnt this what you ever so badly want" he rolled his eyes "Austin was right" he looked at me with red puffy eyes
"Zion don't leave" I said one last time with a crack in my voice. He stopped and I saw him force himself not to come and comfort me. The hurt in his eyes hurt me even more
"Avery I don't want to leave. But you make it so god damn hard not to do so" he bluntly told me
"Zion." I said and took a deep breathe "you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'd be damned if you think I'm not going to try and fix this. Maybe you don't want me to, and it's whatever you want. Because seeing you hurt is harder than being hurt so whatever you choose to do is what I want. I just want what you think is the best for you. I just want to see you grow and if it's leaving me behind than so be it. It's going to hurt me like hell but I would rather be hurt than holding you back"
He stayed silent, to silent. "Avery are you drunk" he said so serious it caught me off guard
       "No what the fu-"
       "Where did I ever say that my life would be better without you" he scrunched his face
       "It might not be you wanting it to happen but you might need it to happ-"
       "Avery that's no where near what I need, I need you"
       "Zion no you don't"
       "Avery yes I do"
       "Zion stop"
       "Avery you're all I need"
       "Zion stop I'm not!" I began raising my voice at him
       "Avery if you say that again I'm gonna get mad" he walked towards me to go and hug me but I pushed him
        "ZION IM LIKE POISON TO YOU AND YOURE SO 'IN LOVE WITH THE THOUGHT OF ME THAT YOU DONT REALIZE IT! GET AWAY FROM ME." I yelled but he didn't listen and grabbed me squeezing me. I started punching his chest to let me go "stop it stop it stop it stop it" I kept saying as I weakly punched his chest to get away from him but I soon gave in
      "I'm not in love with the THOUGHT of you" he said as he held me close to him "I'm in love with you" i stopped and gave into him as he held me close in his arms.