Forbidden love (harry fan fic)

chapter 5

I wait outside our house for James to pick me up. I've been nervous since I got home from school. This will be my first time. What will it be like?  Has James done it before or is it his first too? Will I do it right? Will anything go wrong?  There are so many questions I've been asking myself. It's getting cold and the wind hits my face. I'm too early as always but I've been so excited and my mom was annoying me with her "helpful" tips so I decided to wait outside.

"Maya." James car stands on the other side of the street and he looks out of the window. I didn't see him coming. I was too occupied with my thoughts .

"I'm coming!" I say.

As I sit in his car he looks at me and smiles shyly.

"Hey."

"Hey."

"We should drive. It's getting cold."he says.

During the drive we don't speak that much and as we get to his house he looks at me and smiles.

"I'm so happy and nervous and excited at the same time."

"You don't have to be nervous. I love you and you love me that's the most important thing to know and feel." I say letting the part with my own nervousness out.

"I love you."he kisses me.

"I love you."

We get out of the car and walk straight to the door. It's gotten so cold even though it's October.

As we enter the house we take our jackets off and go to the living room.

"Do you want something to drink?" James asks me.

"Yeah water please."

"Of course."he gives me a smile and walks into the kitchen.

The living room is big and looks very comfortable. I walk to the chimney to get warm as I see a picture of James and Harry. They look so cute together.

"Here is your water." James says and comes over to me.

"Thanks." I take the glass out of his hand.

"You were really cute."I say and look at the picture.

"We are still cute."he laughs.

"Yeah you are." I laugh either.

"Should we go to my room?"

The time has come. I take a deep breath and say

"Sure."

So we go downstairs to his room and on our way we see Harry coming out of his room.

"Maya. What are you doing here?"he pretends to be surprised by seeing me. I'm sure he knows why I am here.

"She's my girlfriend and she can come whenever she wants to." James says angrily.

"Okay calm down."he smirks.

"You let him fuck you right? That's why you are here. Finally. And I thought you would never fuck."he says and looks at James and then at me.

"Harry don't talk to her in that way." James makes a step towards him.

"James please." I say and try to hold him back.

"Ok I'll go. Do whatever you want." he looks into my eyes. Why does he look sad? I can see in his eyes that he's.. hurt?  Why would he be hurt? A few minutes ago it didn't seem like he's hurt or even sad.

He walks away and leaves us here alone.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know he was here."

"It's not your fault. It's Harry. I'm used to it."I say and smile.

"Come let's go to your room."

We go into his room and sit down on his bed.

"Are you sure you want to do it?"he asks me now for the hundredth time.

"Can you please stop asking me that? I do and I always will." I say and kiss him.

"Good morning." James says and kisses me.

"Good morning. What time is it?" My voice sounds so tired.

"It's 7 am."

"7 am?" I repeat.

"Let me sleep a little bit more."

"Come on. Go take a shower and I'll make breakfast. Okay?"he says and waits for me to answer.

"Sounds good."

"Fine."he says and kisses me before he leaves the room.

I get out of bed and walk to the bathroom. Last night was so beautiful. It was one of the best nights I've ever had. James was so cute. He got so nervous much more than me. It was perfect but Harrys face didn't leave me alone during the whole night. Why did he look like that? If I didn't know him I would say he got hurt because of me and James but that's not possible. He hates me. Right? 

As I get out of the room I see harry coming out of the bathroom just with a towel around his waist.

His body and his hair are wet from the shower. He looks at me and smirks. I didn't know that he has that much tattoos.

"And? How was your first time?"he asks me and looks into my eyes.