Forbidden love (harry fan fic)

chapter 16

Time freezes. No one is moving anymore. I have two paths in front of me. Either I can tell everything and break up with James and go to Harry or I deny everything and continue my relationship with James. In those few seconds of silence I can see them both in a way I did not before. First I look up at James. His eyes still on me. How have I come so far to even think about breaking up with him? James. He was the first boy in school who talked to me on my first day. I remember it like it happened yesterday.

I was sitting in the car with my headphones in my ears looking out the window. My mum was driving me to my new school and this was going to be my first day. Every other person on the planet would be nervous or even scared but not me. This was the fourth time that I would go to a new school. I was used to it. After we entered the parking lot of the school I took out my headphones and got out of the car without saying anything to my mum. I walked straight to the entery looking down at the ground to avoid the gazes of the others. Even though it was April it was a cold day. And I didn't mean the days where it was colder than normal for the month. No it was really cold and I started to regret that I hadn't taken my jacket with me. I quickened my steps to escape from this cold and didn't see the boy standing infront of the door and before I could realize anything I walked into him. He turned around immediatley and looked into my eyes. His brown eyes let me forget everything around me even the cold. It felt like they warmed me up. I still was looking into his eyes so he started to smile and I felt something changing inside of me.

"I'm sorry. I didn't see you." I said quietly and walked into the school buliding. What just happened? Why did I get that weak and nervous? I shook my head and tried to forget it as I heard someone following me. I turned around to see the boy who I just talked to.

"Hey. Why did you just leave?" he said with a calm voice. I didn't say anything.

"Are you new here?"he asked me and gave me a smile that made me feel better immediatley.

"Yes." I say nervously.

"Cool. Do you want me to show you around school?" he asks.

"Sure." I answered and saw him smiling. I didn't know how much that smile would mean to me in the future.

I feel a tear falling down my face that brings me back to reality. They are still standing there not moving or doing anything else. I look at Harry and into his green eyes that make me feel weak every time I see them. Harry. I don't really remember when I first met Harry. It was one of the times I visited James and I saw him and that was it. He was just the brother of James and I am not going to lie I hated him as I heard what he had done to all the girls before. But something has changed. I've learnt a better side of him. I have seen him acting different then he normally does. Thinking about a future with him a future without the fear to get caught by someone or without feeling guilty makes me feel free and happy and all that can happen if I am brave enough to tell James. But do I really want a future with Harry? Does he love me enough to spend the rest of his life with me and more important do I love him that much? But I already know the answer. I do.

"I love him." I say quietly as I am talking to myself.

"What?" James asks with a suprised voice.

I don't look at him but Harry and as I see him smiling and the happiness in his eyes I'm getting braver and say it again this time louder.

"I love him."

I finally said it. And I feel good. Yes I do love him. Even though I love James I have to do this. I have to try it with Harry. I don't know what the future is going to bring. But what I know is that I love him and this is enough to me to try it.