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Jahseh
"Who is Stoke?"I asked my arms still crossed. Its the second time i'm hearing him say that name. I feel like I know the person. Plus Gazzy was just talking to him about me so he must know me and vice versa.

"Well?" I probed when he remained silent.

"Uhm he...he is...uh...uhm...he is..uh a family friend? Yeah a very very close family friend of ours."he said giving me a goofy smile m

"Why did it take you so long to tell me that?"he was  acting strange.

"No reason really."he shrugged focusing on his phone.

"Is Omar a family friend too?"I asked.

"No. His my fiance."he said frowning.

"You have a whole fiancé? How much did I forget?"I shook my head feeling it spin. There is just so much I can't remember. I have a half brother who has a five year old son,is married and pregnant again. Now Gazzy has a fiancé and Symere left with his boyfriend. All this information is just coming at me all at once. My head begun to spin.

"Jah are you okay?"Gazzy asked sounding alarmed.

"Yeah i'm fine."I mumbled but the room was spinning. I blinked rapidly to maintain focus but it wasn't working.

"Jahseh! Your nose....its bleeding." Gazzy exclaimed. I placed my fingers under it. There was blood on them. Soon the metal taste was in my mouth. My head begun to pound. I collapsed to the floor holding my head. Gazzy rushed. To get help I think. The pain just got worse by the second.

"H-Here." Gazzy handed me something. My pills. He knelt beside me holding me. I tried taking them on my own but my hands were trembling so hard. Gazzy took it placing it in my mouth then water from a glass. I quickly swallowed. I leaned against Gazzy waiting for the pain to dissolve.

"It hurts so bad."I sobbed.

"Its okay..you are okay.."he cooed in my ear. The pain was slowly going away. I heard a sniffle. I shifted to where I could see Gazzy's face. He had tears streaming down his face.

"Its my fault right?"I whispered. He frowned.

"No no. You did nothing wrong Jah. You'll get better soon."he said softly wiping my tears away.

"No. Its my fault....your fiance....not here..."I struggled to speak. The medicine was kicking in. Not to mention. I took it twice today.

"Don't worry about that Jah. Your health is more important."he said rubbing my back in circles.

"You mi..iisss hiiim?"I slurred. He smiled briefly before nodding his head. My vision was blurry but I could see the glint in his eye when he thinks about his fiancé. Next misson. Bring  Omar to Gazzy. I thought as my eyes slowly closed.

Gazzy
I watched Jah as he slowly drifted into a medicine induced sleep. I need to be careful so he doesn't catch me talking to Stokeley again. That way he won't stress his brain trying to know and remember things.

"What happened? He said he was coming to tell you to get him a new phone."Nick asked seeing our current position.

"He caught talking to Stokeley."I stated plainly looking at him. He looked troubled in his sleep. As if he was thinking of something important. Nick gasped.

"Then what?"he asked.

"I told him he was a family friend." Saying that sentence made me break down. I imagined myself in Jah's position. Forgetting all about my Omar. I shook my head quickly. I can't even imagine that. I felt Nick's small hand on mine. He was on the floor next to us. I know he must feel it worse. Jahseh is his half brother and yet doesn't remember him.

"And Stokeley? How is he?"he asked.

"Bad. He rarely sleeps or even its properly. He is now introverted. He rarely speaks unless he is performing or at an interview. Omar tells me he is drinking abit too much even though he thinks no one knows."I said stroking Jah's dreads.

"This is all so sad. The accident ruined their lives pretty bad." Nick said. It impacted all our lives. Just then my phone rung. Nick took it from the bed since I had Jahseh in my arms." Its Stokeley."he said with a frown. Of course. As usual he magically felt Jahseh was not okay.

"Answer it and put it on speaker."I said. I'm not worried about Jahseh. Once he takes the pills its like he is half dead. Nick did as I said.

"Gazzy? What happened?"he automatically asks.

"He is okay Stoke. I had to tell him you are a family friend."he does not need to know Jahseh had another break down. It would only fuel his guilt. It was silent for a while until we heard sniffles. He is crying. Shit I am too.

"Its okay Ski...you'll get through this. We all will."I tried to reassure him.

"You don know that Gazzy. My baby is suffering and its all my fault."he cried. Nick was crying too. Out of all of us Stokeley is the most affected. I completely understand him even though I can't relate to his pain. He lost too much in the accident.

"You have to forgive yourself Stokeley. You had everything in your power  for Jahseh. I'm sure if you could you would change back time and prevent the accident but you can't. You have to forgive yourself so ease some of your own suffering. Just accept what happened and try to be there for Jahseh."I pleaded. He slowly killing himself and it worried me that when Jahseh finally recovers he will have nothing to return to.

"Just keep me informed."he hung up as he always did when ever someone tried to reason with him. I looked at Nick who had tears in his eyes. I sighed closing my eyes as I leaned back against the bed frame.

"I'll go get Tay to help us move him." Nick said standing up. I nodded my eyes still closed. All this just needs to be over. And soon.

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