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11

Stokeley
I suddenly felt Jah shift in my arms. He whimpered slightly in his sleep. The baby must be acting up. I placed my arm around him pulling him close. I rubbed his belly slowly in small circles. It always calmed my daughter's movement. I'm still ecstatic about the whole situation. I'mma be a father. Soon at that. Its been nine months already but I still feel am not ready. I am still nervous about raising a whole human being. Will I be good dad?

Jahseh has told me countless times that I should relax. We got this. But still I can't help but be anxious. I can't promise anything but i'mma be here all the way. For my coming princess and my baby. I pushed my thoughts away trying to fall back to sleep.

"S-stoke." Jahseh called lowly. His voice seemed strained. Another whimper excaped his lips.

"Whats wrong baby?"I asked when he tensed up in my arms.

"S-Stokeley its time."he breathed out his voice still strained. Time? Time for what? I scrunched up my face in confusion. Time?...oh shit! Its time!

"Its time? Oh my God! Its time."I shot up from the bed  flicking on the light. Jah was groaning and moving around in bed clearly in pain. I panicked." What do I do? What do I do?"I paced back and forth pulling at my dreads . My breathing was heavy as my thoughts were everywhere. Jahseh groaned making my movements stop.

"Stoke baby calmed down."he said through gritted teeth." WE planned this already. Jus grab the bag and tak-oh God!"he groaned again sinking his nails into the bed. He took a deep breath."..take me to the hospital."he finished his sentence.

I did as he said grabbing the bag and my car keys. I carried him bridal style to the car. I placed him carefully on the passenger seat. Happiness flowed through me like a drug. My baby was finally going to be here. My sweet princess.

I rushed to my side quickly get in. My happiness deflated when Jahseh hissed in pain. He was trying to hard to breath and remain quiet. Guilt replaced my euphoria .This is all my fault. I shouldn't have  nutted in him. But neither of us knew he could get pregnant. Turns out he was just like his half brother Nick who already has a four year old son. I was shook when we found out Jah was pregnant.

I noticed that neither of us had shoes on but there was no time to get them. Fuck it! I started up the car heading to the hospital. I constantly glanced at Jah to ensure he was okay. It killed me that I couldn't do anything to help him at this point.

"Baby are you okay?"I asked placing my hand in his. WRONG MOVE! He squeezed the life outta my hand. Still I dint pull away.

"I'm f-fin-oh shit.."his breath hitched and he squeezed my hand harder. My worry increased. All I wanted now was to make it to the hospital real quick.

"It's going to be fine. It's going to be okay. You'll be okay. It's-"I tried to assure him but he cut me off by yelling.

"STOKELEY WATCH OUT!"I focused on the road again seeing a truck too close to us. I tried as much as I could to avoid it. It was too late. I heard a loud crash as Jahseh's scream filled my ears. I felt my body go numb. He  screamed  my name again. The car was turning in the air. Everything was happening in slow motion. I heard a last thud. I guess the car finally landed on the ground. My vision was slipping.

"Jahseh....."I tried reaching for him but I couldn't move. "Jahseh...."

"Jahseh...."

"Jahseh..."

"JAHSEH!" I screamed sitting up. My breathing was laboured as I frantically looked around. I was in my room. This dark empty room. I was dripping sweat. Those memories will never leave me. Tears sprang to my eyes as I reached for the lamp switching it on. I looked to the side of me. Empty. No one has laid on that side of the bed. Jah's side.