this love is real

thirty three:opening up

"mom stares at me knowing I was right

"Gavin can you give us a minute" my mom said opening her room door so we can talk in there

"ma I wanna know the truth, what happen with you and dad" I ask siting next to her on the bed "I thought me and your father were in love, we were but," she says then stops

"go on ma" I say "well I got pregnant when I was 16 with you,and he wanted to stick by my side so he proposed, then came shmaya and DJ" she says sniffing

"it was just so stressful, I worked 3 times a day and I still didn't even make 30 hours, and your father tried helping he would bring stacks of cash home every month like we hit the lottery" she said beginning to cry now

"and he would never tell me what he did to bring home all that money, then one day I followed him and" she stopped

"go on ma I can take it" I say wanting to know more

"okay" she said clearing her throat so she can talk again

"well when I followed him, I saw him selling drugs on the side of a mini mart" she said

"that night when I asked him where he was he lied straight to my face and said he was at Bible study" she said boiling her eyes out now

"how could he lie and say he was doing the work of god when he was doing the work of the devil, so when he fell asleep I packed up all our things and took u shmaya and DJ with me"

"I didnt know where I was going but all I knew was I couldn't go back that's why I hate when Roberts smokes" she said

"oh mom I didn't know, I'm so sorry" I say now rubbing her back

"we struggled with money for a long time we were even homeless for months, none of my family wanted me they warned me bout your father and how things weren't gonna work out"

"then I met Robert he opened up his home to us when he could have just left us on the streets" she says as I wrap my arms around her and cry with her