〰 This is so wrong, I can't go on 'till you believe that should be me 〰
- Yoongi please!
- Again Jungkook? The answer will always be no. NO. N-O.
Why was so hard letting me go undercover too?
- Why not? What do the others agents have that I don't?
- It's more what they don't have.
- Explain, Yoongi.
- They don't have a Jimin that will kill them if I let you go undercover. And didn't you want to be a detective? Keep going then, go study and leave me alone, child.
He putted me out of his office for the second time this morning. I was just trying to help. If I was there I could help Jimin and he could come home soon. Everyone would be happy. I don't get it why they don't let me. I'm a good detective. Wait... I'm a good detective.
I saw Yoongi leaving his office after half a hour waiting hidden on the hall. After I saw that nobody was around, I opened the door with a lost clip. After I got in, I closed the door again. I set on Yoongi's desk. It feels good being the boss. Focus Jungkook, focus! So he was too relax to have a password on his computer. Bingo! I searched for Park Jimin on the files and I found everything about the mission. Even what I didn't want to know.
- Our agent is in a relationship with the S organization member named V, being his birth name Kim Taehyung. Hmm. Interesting.
I knew that was undercover but you still being with someone else. Not me. I saw pictures of them together that you sent to the base and the relators. I didn't read it, I just looked at this pictures. First I looked at you, I will never get used to that blonde hair. It's my death. Your piercing was making impossible not looking at your lips. You're tired, your eyes are tired. You're not smiling like you used to be, is that because of me? Is that because of us? Do you still love me, Jimin? Or do you want him? He looked so better then me. He's much prettier then I am. I'm sure you like him or maybe even love him. Looking at that pictures made me realize that I don't have you anymore. You're not mine.
I was thinking what would you be doing with this guy while I'm here crying because you are gone. But you move on. I might not be on your thoughts anymore. Did you forget me? I have to know.
I was going to close the file when a new photo came. I was stupid at the point of open it. You know how is having a rock crashing your chest? It was what I felt in that moment. You two were all dress up with black. The only think I could saw right was your bright hair and his. You were holding his waist, his backs were on your chest, the same chest I used to lay down. The same chest I used to hide my face. The same chest, mine chest. Do you even remember when you used to hold me? Like that? Just like that? You used to tell me I was beautiful at my ear. Did you tell that to him too? Did you do the same things that you used to do with me? And him? He's better doing it with you? Does he loves you like I do? I can't. I just can't see you with him like this, that should be me.
I toke note of the address of that place you were going with him. I got up and leaved Yoongi's office. You want a man in black? I can be a man in black. I put all my clothes to the floor finding the rights ones. I stopped at the mirror and brush my hair up. Do I look like a man now? I toke my black jacket and left the most messiest room I ever saw. Just like my heart is the messiest place.
- Jungkook? Jungkook where are you going dress up like that?
I don't have time for this Yoongi.
- I have to go. I'll explain later.
Wait Jungkook, the address is of a street like in the other side of the town, how can I go there? I came back to Yoongi's place.
- Yoongi, I know I'm doing something wrong but I need to.
- What the hell kid?
I toke his car keys along with his office keys and locked him.
- Jeon Jungkook! Let me out! Jungkook! You're in trouble! Open this door right now!
I left him talking alone I got into his car. I don't have a drive license but I'm a cop so I can't arrest myself.
Driving a car is not that easier as it looks but I got there. I left it in the middle of the street because I don't know how to park it.
- Name?
- Is there a name to get in?
- Yes, name?
Great, now how will I get in? Wait I got an idea.
- I'm friends with Baby J.
Thanks god for my memorie.
- You know Baby J?
Ok, this is just RM. Act cool, like a man that you are. It's not like he will kill me if I say something wrong.
- Yes, I..I know him.
He was going to say something when a car stopped next to us.
- Suga! My man! Bro I thought you were dad! Come here! Let me hug you!
What the hell... So Yoongi is Suga and he's an undercover too? And he knows RM? I'm so confused.
- What's up RM? See that you found my cousin! This is Jungoo.
- Hey, if he's your family, he's my family too!
Rm hugged me, like help. I need help.
- C'mon lets get in! You have to see what I did to this place man! It's really different from when you left.
Thank you RM for distracting Suga also know as Yoongi so I can go looking for you. People were dancing, drinking and still morning, like 11 am. I saw you. I stopped. I wasn't ready to talk with you. My body didn't listen to my mind and just followed you to that bathroom. I was outside trying to understand what was going inside but the noise around me was so loud. I think I could hear your voice but I couldn't understand what was going on. Then I saw Yoongi coming to me and my only way out was getting into the bathroom. And then I heard what was on my mind on repeat.
- I'm his boyfriend. You can call who the fuck you want he won't be leaving with you!
You are HIS boyfriend, you are not my boyfriend. I felt Yoongi's arm holding mine. Not because I was going anyway but because I was going to fall. Once again I lost my strength on my legs. Seeing you hugging him, protecting him, where that should be me. I can't explain how you broke me. I can't explain what I felt in that moment, like everything I believed one day, it never existed.
