Will you stay with me tonight and pretend it's all alright? Tell me that you love me the way you used to love me.
- I know we don't know each other, but how are you?
- I don't know. I though we were fine, I though he understands this. I don't know anything anymore.
I pulled my hair with all my strength but it didn't hurt. Nothing hurts me anymore.
- I'm sorry. He was really happy about you coming. I don't know why this happened. It doesn't look like him.
- This is him. This is him when he's not fine. - I hide my face on my hands, I was crying but it doesn't matter anymore. I don't want to stay here, not like this. You need time, you need to be without me. I'm not good for you. I'm sorry I did you make pass all this things. I should have ended with it before, I should have done it different.
- I'm sure he is destroying is room. He doesn't want to talk with anyone. I'm sorry, Jimin. I don't know what's wrong with him. He was so happy with you coming back. All this thing with V should have gone different. I'm sorry.
- It's okay Yoongi. You don't have any fault. I should have done things different with him. Thank you both for caring about him. I will only ask that you still do that for him, please. He's special. - I got up from the floor and cleaned my tears on my sleeve.
- Where are you going? It's over, RM is in the prison and V in a clinic. He was mental problems because of being abused. He's dangerous, good that you didn't have to stay with him more time.
- Yeah I know, Jungkook as them too. - they didn't know, but it was the only way they could take care of you the right way.
- What? I'm not understanding. - Hoseok was looking at me and Yoongi confused, it's okay everyone is.
- I read his file so I know.
- Hoseok, he was abound by his father when he was 6 years old on the street. He needs mental care. He will always feel lonely. That's why I was selected by Yoongi to this mission. V as well as Jungkook need special cares. They need protection more then normal people, they need to be cared, they can't be alone for a long time. Sometimes they can be with a lot of people but still feel lonely. That's also why they look like children sometimes because they need that support. They are always afraid of not being good enough or that the person they love will leave them. They have lack of attention.
- That makes a lot of sense now.
- So Hoseok I can't continue here, he needs space and time so I'm going to ask you if you are ready to know how to deal with a person like this? I'm trusting in you with all of my heart. Jungkook's heart is like my heart so I'm putting it into your hands. Can I trust in you with this? You can learn anything with Yoongi, I'm sure he will help you.
- I will help you of course. Jungkook is really like a son to me, you know it bro.
- You can count on me too, Jimin. He's my best friend. I will help.
- Thank you guys.
Now I can go, now I know you are safe. This will be the best for both of us. You need to move on, you need to be happy without me.
I went to my room sleeping, well at least I tried. I couldn't sleep so I went to the bathroom toke my piercing of it hurted like hell and dyed my hair back to black. I open my window and sat on the window sill looking at the night. There was only you in my mind. I remembered when you told me, exactly here, what happened to you. You told me your storie and I couldn't love you more. I knew I loved you already but in that moment I felt in love with every peace of you.
I don't blame on you that you don't believe in me, but I love you. I love you so bad and that's what hurt the most.
So when you probably see this video I made for you tonight, I'm probably gone. I wanted to tell you our story, how I see it. I wanted you to see what I think about V. I don't regreat being undercover. I regreat all the lies I told, to you, to V. But I never lied about loving you. So Jungkook-ah, I love you.
I turned off the camara and toke off the tape. I came to your room and you were sleeping between the mess. I came to you and pulled up the blanket. I let the tape next to your bed and kissed your messy hair.
- I love you. - I whispered and left your room.
I was coming back to mine but this I wasn't expecting.
- RM? What are you..........
I felt like fireworks on my chest and when I looked and touched my chest with my hand I felt the blood running throw my fingers, so that's the feeling of you being shoot. At least I told you I love you. I love you, Jungkook. All I saw was my eyes closing and all black.
