〰One more taste of your lips just to bring me back to the places we've been and the nights we've had because if this is it at least we could end it right. 〰
Seeing you right there in front of me let me thinking how I hate my life. How stupid this mission is. I didn't want to hurt you but you didn't make it easier too. My mind was not working but when V started talking it got worse.
- Suga? You are back! - V left my arms to go hug Yoongi that might be Suga too? I'm lost, what is going on?
- Little Apple - Yoongi hugged him back and I thought it couldn't be weird. - I'm going to stay with you so J can go make the trade alright?
- You know J? - V looked at me confused, boy don't ask me I don't understand a thing.
- Yes, he's my old friend. Now come. J take Jungoo with you, he has to learn a lot of things.
- Hi, I'm V - He was smiling at you and you just looked at him with contemp. Don't do this, not to him. I understand it's not easier but he doesn't deserve or have fault of anything.
- Jungoo is a little shy, come I have that candy that you love.
- That's why you are my Suga! - They left and for the first time I looked at your face.
You were mad I can tell it. You were looking into my eyes but I couldn't stare at yours. I'm feeling so guilty.
- Let's go - I toke your arm but you pulled it away form me. - Okay I deserve it.
You followed me outside, I toke a deep breath i felt like the world was going to fall down. Nothing feels right, I'm not alright, you are not either. Why did this had to happened to us?
- How did you came here? I'm sure it wasn't with Yoongi. The school is from the other side.
I saw you starting playing with your foot kicking no existent rocks and your eyes where on the floor.
- Jungkook? I'm talking to you, can you answer me?
- I toke Yoongi's car.
- You what? Did you know what could happen? There could be in accident, you could get yourself kill!
- Being killed would had hurt less.
I toke a deep breath again. I wasn't going to fight with you, not like this.
- Give me the keys, I'm taking you home. But before we're going to talk about this.
I sat on the driver seat and waited for you to come in. I turned on the car and watching you putting the belt made me laugh. Now you are concerned about the rules.
I drove to the river because nobody could hear us and you were always more relaxed by the water. I closed the car and sat on the grass. You sat next to me but not close. I don't judge you.
- So... Why did you come? I don't want excuses I want the truth Jungkook - I looked at you but you were looking at your hands. Who am I to ask the truth when I lie everytime.
- I..I wanted to know. I miss you and not knowing anything about you is killing me. I know it's your job and I know I just screw everything up but...I need you back, Jimin.
I can't tell you that you will have me back because I don't know it myself. I was looking at the water but I knew you were looking at me. I can feel that.
- I'm not going to pretend that what you did was right, you could had messed with my mission. All this hard work I had for this month and that doesn't make it easier to come home. But you have to understand that we can't be together anymore. You can't expect me to come back to you everyday because that will not happen. But that also doesn't mean that I don't love you. I love you a lot. I'm with V but that doesn't mean I love him. He's part of my work. If I have to marry him to be succeed I will. That doesn't mean anything to me. I have my life as Jimin and my life as J. They are different. Jimin loves you, J loves V. One day J will not exist anymore and I will be with you all the time. Now I just can't. You have to understand that Jungkook - I pulled you to a hug and felt your tears on my shirt. - It hurts me too. I love you with all of my heart and I need you to trust and believe in that. I may lie about lot of things but I'll never lie about loving you. Never.
You didn't say a thing for a long time. You were just crying on my chest. Feeling your smell again, feeling your body next to mine was torture. Because I want you and I want you with all of me but I can't have you. Not now. I can't let you hurt yourself in the middle of this. Not anymore.
- Are you okay? You didn't say a thing - I missed touching your hair like this, I missed being with you.
- I just want to enjoy this time that I'm with you before going. I loved your blond hair and your piercing. It makes you look really like a bad ass - I thought I will not see you smile again but there it is, your little bunny smile. - and Yoongi showed me your tattoo. Until that time I had some trouble believing in your love, believing that you still want me but after that I have no doubts. You tattooed something that means a lot to us, to me and if that's not love, I don't know what that is. I know I made this stupid thing because I was so angry that you were with him and not with me, that he could have you but I couldn't. But I promise I'll get better. I'll focus on my career too and waiting for you. I'll always wait for you Jimin-ssi.
My smile wasn't enought to show you how much I was happy at that moment. Seeing you understanding this was the best gift someone could give me. I hope after this things get easier to us. Your eyes were on my piercing and when I looked at you, you blushed. I never forgot how cute you are.
- What about that hair style too? Is too keep? I hope so but only when I'm back because I don't want people looking at your forehead. - I said it serious because I'm serious, I don't want nobody around you. It wasn't fair enough of me to ask for that but I can't imagine someone taking care of you that's not me.
- Glad you liked but I don't like my forehead that much - you started putted your hair down but I stopped you.
- What did I tell you? - I was holding your hand and interlocked your fingers on mine.
- I'm beautiful no matter what me or other people think or say - You smiled again. I don't want to go. I want to stop the time and stay here watching you smile. I was born for that.
- That's my boy - I tickled you because hearing your laugh was the most beautiful melody that exist in this word.
I don't know how we end up rolling down the grass but I remember you on the top of me looking at my lips. Please do it, I beg you to do it. And you did. One month later I felt your lips against mine again. You don't know you need air until you don't have it, that's what happened with me. I didn't knew I need your kissed until I haven't it anymore.
- Hey! Romeu and Juliet! Time to take Juliet back home! - Yoongi found us, I don't know who but he's always there.
- Why am I the Juliet? Why can't I be the Romeo?
- oh my little child that gonna be the least of your problems, you are in big troubles now. Get in the car, we're going to talk about this at the school.
- Yes, oppa. - You always liked to teasing him and I found it funny. - I don't want to go but I understand it. I'll get better, I promise. Pinky promise?
I don't like promises because I never keep them but I hope you will.
- Pinky promise - I smiled back to you and interlaced our pinky fingers.
I hold you for a last kiss before Yoongi started yelling at us again.
- You can stay with that car. Come back because V is getting suspicious, I made the trade so everything is okay.
- Thank you Yoongi. I own you one.
- After this? You own me much more then just one.
I laugh while getting into the car. You wave me goodbye and I sent you a kiss.
Now I know we never saw each other after that for 2 years but this time I wouldn't have done anything different.
