His Insecure Beauty (Interracial)

°8° Why does he care if I look at him or not?

Hi Koi Soups Happy late Valentine's. The music above is the lyric video to Taemin - under my skin. I hope you listen to it because I think it goes well with this chapter.

Dedicated to MoKk15Xox.

Alezorio sits on the chair by the desk while I sit on the bed. Neither of us wanted to start talking first it seems. It's the most awkward we've been with each other.

He sits there looking at me. While I stare at the floor taking notice of the different shades of browns in the hardwood. I want to look at him but his intense eyes would be too much.

I wonder what he wants to talk about.

"Lianna can you please look at me? I need your attention for what I'm about to say."

He sounds serious. Does me making eye contact matter that much?

Why does he care if I look at him or not?

"If you don't we can sit here all night. I'm not talking until you look at me."

His voice said not to try him because he's being serious. Slowly even though I don't want to I turn my eyes on his. Alezorio's hazel eyes sparkled under the yellow light in my room which seems to bring out the hint of gold in them even more.

"I regret hurting your feelings. The date wasn't supposed to end that way. I apologize for kissing you without consent. Please give me another chance-"

"Why?" I interrupt him. I don't see any reason to. I'm sure he doesn't really like me.

"Alezorio what are you getting out of this? Why do you even like me?"

He gets up and comes over the bed. Alezorio sits down and as I try to move back he pulls me onto his lap him. He caresses my back pressing my front into his hard chest. My breathing becomes uneven. As I try to get off him but he holds me firmly with a grip that left no room to move, not even an inch.

"What are you doing?"

He leans down before continuing. Our faces are now a breath away from each other. Ignoring my question he says.

"The only thing I'll get is you. Lianna I want you. Another chance means a possibility of getting what I want, and I always get what I want. One way or another mark my words."

Alezorio said this as if his answer made perfect sense. He wants me?

Upon thinking those words my legs feel weak as my heart rate quickens. A feeling I couldn't describe takes over me.

"Why do you want me? I mean look at me."

Why does he want me when I'm so ugly to look at? I'm not the beautiful model I'm sure he's use to, so why me.

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How do I explain it to her? Explain why her.

In my head it's simple. Everything about Lianna pulls me. Her innocence, her beauty, heck even the way she acts around me. Unlike other woman who want to get into my bed. Lianna is the complete opposite. She wants nothing to do with me.

Before you say its because "you want what you can't have its not that." Its not because she's not coming onto me. Yes its refreshing to see for a change a woman who only focus isn't sleeping with me. But its more than that. I want her because from the first second I saw Lianna something inside me just clicked, no screamed for me to have her, for me to love her, for me to protect her.

It's like I need her as much as I know she needs me. Though I doubt she would agree. Lianna would beg to differ otherwise. She wouldn't admit she wants me much less needs me.

But she does.

"Lianna have you ever met someone and it's like your world that was once gray becomes splashed with color, becuase they're who you needed in you life the entire time. Like your very existence was made just so you could find that person. If you can kind of understand any of this then this is my answer."

"What?" Lianna mutters confused.

"Lianna you're that someone for me, your that person I just described. From the first moment we met I felt my entire being was waiting for you and now I've met you I'm never letting go."

She stirs around on my lap causing me to harden from the friction. But Lianna doesn't realize this. Hense what I said about her innocence. She doesn't know how she affects me with just her body next to mine like this.

The idea of unfolding a whole new world of pleasure to her unseen eyes is something I can't wait for. Like exploring this new found arousal to her stuttering. Something I never knew is possible until Google said is psellismophilia.

She has no ideas what I'm planning to teach her about her body and the ways I'll will bring her pleasure. Lianna pushing against my chest brings me back from my thoughts.

"Lianna We'll take it slow for now at your pace. But just know you can't avoid me anymore. If I call I'd like you to answer if possible. If I text the same applies. If you promise to do these two things for me, I swear I won't kiss you again until you've ask me to/make the first move. I won't touch you until then."

She watched me with an expression that says I don't think I trust you and I won't ever ask you to kiss me.

Lianna thinks she won't but It won't be as easy as she thinks. I'm going to make it as difficult as possible for her. I said I wouldn't kiss her but I never promise I wouldn't tease her. Its gonna be fun to see her beg for my touch.

I sit her off me before getting up from the bed. I twirl a blonde curl in between my thumb and pointer finger. Taking one last look at her before leaving the room.

When I open her door I saw her older sister Jaye running away to the door down from Lianna's room. She must have been eavesdropping on our conversation. I couldn't help but smirk at catching her.

Going back the way I came I leave Lianna's home to head to mine. Even though it's going to be hard waiting for Lianna's next appointment I'll have to wait. After all good things comes to those who wait.

Koi Soups I know it's been a while but I was in a bit of writer's block with this story. Probably because I've been writing as I go which I told myself I wouldn't do. But I'm back now so I hope it was worth the wait. Please vote if you like this chaper and this story so far. Also leave me a comment on anything. Your feedback is greatly appreciated.

P.S. psellismophilia is arousal to stuttering. Who knew someone can get aroused by stuttering?

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