S.S.S. 3 AGAIN

Chapter Nine

"Only you can be you, only I can be me.
You always wanna be what you're not,
Can't you be happy with what you've got.
You're perfect the way you are,
With the insecurities, faults and scars.
Life is short to worry, don't you know it's true?
Only you can be you."
- How To Rock cast.
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I was in my room going through the letter Lydia gave me earlier. After she gave me, we never talked. It just made me dull all through. The Biology oral test I prepared for didn't go well either. Due to my dull attitude, I wasn't able to answer my oral questions that Aunt Tilly asked me well.

Thank goodness it was everyone of us in class who couldn't answer it well, so she never recorded it. She told us we'd work in the farm for not doing well. I guess Demmie noticed because he came to meet me and asked why I was dull and suddenly quiet. I just told him nothing, not like I could tell him it was all because of him.

Later in the day, a letter was passed to me from the other girls, written by Lydia. The letter was a brief one, telling us she was going through a hard time presently and we shouldn't mind if she gets moody or shouts at us anyhow, until she's back to herself.

Closing the letter, I stood up from my bed and walked over to my table. I took a note, tore a sheet of paper from its middle and took my pen in my bag. I jumped on my bed again and started writing the letter I wanted to send back to her.

Lydia,

Really, I don't know why we are taking this issue so serious up to the point we ain't relating with each other like we used to. First off, you talked about stepping down. Is Demola a competition? No, he isn't. So I see no reason why one of us has to step down for the other.

Look here, seeing us break apart is not something of joy because of one guy whom we don't even know if he'll ever get to know about these feelings. Lydia, I made this decision already so I see no reason why you have to let go instead. Demola has feelings for only one girl and that's you.

The reason you're feeling this way is only because you got to know I also have feelings for him. The way he does to me is the way he behaves to other girls, but you only took notice of mine due to the fact that I once told you I have feelings for him. Trust me, he has eyes on only one girl and that's you, Lydia.

I really don't want us to fight or have friendship issues all because of a guy. It makes no meaning, really. Trust me, I'm trying to get over him and I will, soon. I get that it's not easy for you to get over him soon due to the fact that you've had feelings for him since your SS1, but for me who can still let go because my feelings ain't as strong as yours, I will do it.

Yeah, I'm not promising you that I won't talk to him again. I'm not promising you that I won't smile back to him when he smiles to me. I'm not promising you that I'll snub him whenever he tries to talk to me, but I'm assuring you that he has feelings for a girl and that's you only, Lydia. Believe me. I'm your twin okay? And don't let anything whatever or anyone try to break an already built friendship of ours.

Just cheer up hun? I miss my Lydia. The one I run to when I have problems. The one we talk about Nickelodeon together. The one that makes me laugh. The one that we talk about stupid issues and laugh together. The one who understands everything I say just by some simple signs of mine. I miss that Lydia of mine. The Lydia I see now is a changed one, who doesn't smile like before and who behaves really cold to people now. I hope I get my twin sis back soon. Come give me a hug when ya done with the letter please... With an assuring smile. I miss those warm hugs and smiles.

-Oluwademilade.

As I finished the letter, I burst into uncontrollable tears. Tears that I just didn't know why they were rushing. Wait, am I taking her over myself or I'm helping her over myself? I'm letting go of someone I like to someone else in the name of friendship? My God. But what if he asks me out first? I'm not even prepared for that and I don't see myself saying yes. Yet, I don't want to say no. Oh Demilade, you made a decision already. You've let go for her, remember? Then if he asks me out, I'll rather tell him someone else really likes him instead and if he asks who, I'll tell him it's Lydia. I thought.