July 7, 2018
A day that will live on in infamy
The day my insides were turned inside out
And strung up in the trees of my hometown
The come out that ruined my senior year
What was meant to be freeing just filled me with fear
I'm afraid to fall in love and afraid to be myself
My mother's convinced my friends will drag me to hell
The week after that, I lost my best friend
I knew at one point our friendship would end
But not the way that my mother made me
Cutting her out of my life so suddenly
It's been almost a year, and I still hear her voice
In laughter and concerts and all the white noise
I never knew what it meant to have a broken heart
Until we spent a year of hell apart
I see her love for me in everything I do
In pride flags and movie tickets and vanilla perfume
Maybe in the future our paths will cross
And I can tell that I felt the loss
In my eyes, she deserves the world
In my mother's eyes, she's nothing above dirt
But I'm a coward in a sarcastic skin of bravery
They both only want what's best for me
How do I hate the woman who raised me
And how do I forget the girl who saved me?
