IMPOSSIBLE | JIKOOK ✔

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number of words ---->  252 words

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character's pov ----> PJM

you know what it is with you, kook?

you're oblivious.

thinking that you're the only one who suffers,

thinking that you're the only one who's in pain.

i was there when you cried,

i was there when you lied to cover for us,

i was there when you needed someone to hug.

i was there when you needed love.

i was there, Jungkook.

i always was - 

i always am.

my actions towards you become a thing for power,

for control.

i guess im just addicted to the feeling of finally -

finally - 

being above someone.

we both know about the past -

so tell me jungkook,

are you doing this out of misery - 

or, is it pity?

sympathy?

disgust?

is that what it is?

why do you let me get away with it?

i've tried to get you in so many ways,

have tried to get your attention so many times,

tried to get your love,

your affection,

but now?

this is sick

im sick.

i know its wrong,

you know its wrong,

but we still do it,

we still let it happen.

I try not to let it get me, 

this pain,

the guilt,

of touching you,

of hurting you.

but hatred gets the better of me.

because of that, im sorry.

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Im a monster.