IMPOSSIBLE | JIKOOK ✔

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JJK

you've not been coming into school

a part of me - 

the side that knows you - 

knows that you won't be back anytime soon.

i'll admit it,

my heart yearns for you whenever I see your desk unoccupied.

i feel - 

i feel incomplete with you gone hyung, 

where are you?

you've never missed school,

even on the days you've felt like hell.

but now you've just.. gone 

without any type of message -

or notice - 

and it's worrying me.

it's slowly gnawing me away.

please tell me that you haven't left?

your "friends" haven't noticed your absence -

honestly, I don't think that they care

you were just a decimal in a world of integers

we're just decimals in a word filled with integers.

please tell me what I can do for you -

to show you that I care

to show you that Im here for you

i will literally tear my heart out for you, hyung.

everything of mine is yours.

my heart, 

my soul, 

my love.

you know - 

there's something I've always wanted to ask you.

something that just repeatedly chants in my mind -

a thought that's been dominating over every other,

hyung - 

am I hard to love?

am I not a good person?

i'm never there for you when you need me -

and that makes me a bad person, doesn't it?

it makes me a disloyal friend,

a bad brother

a bad lover.

am I too selfish?

i just  - I just want you here.

i just want you with me.

i just want us to be free.

hyung answer your phone.

answer me.

come back to me.

i've made everything impossible - 

and i want to apologise

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Please hurry